halloween survey..yeah im killing time...its almost 5...yay!

Halloween Survey!!!! yay
Do you like Halloween?:	yes its fun~
Whats ur favorite part about it?:	dressing up or watching all the little kids in their costumes, so cute!
Do u dress up for it?:	if im going to a party
Do u go trick-or-treating?:	no im too old for that
Do you go to any Halloween parties?:	if im invited
Have u ever HAD a Halloween Party?:	yes
Do u carve ur pumpkins?:	not this year but we have in the past
Do u make them scary or cute?:	both
What are u being this year?:	this year i was a nurse, but only for nates sake lol hehe
What were you last year?:	i dont believe i dressed up last year
What was your favorite costume?:	hhmm i have to say i like my nurses costume a lot
Do you usually buy ur costume or put it together with stuff u have?:	buy it
Whats the most expensive costume u've bought?:	the one for this year
Ever won a costume contest?:	nope
Bobbed for Apples?:	yup
When to a real haunted house?:	i think they mean went to a real haunted house...nope
Sat in a cemetary on Halloween night?:	no
Been scared by something on Halloween night?:	yes, duh?!
Eaten so much Halloween candy u got sick?:	haha no
Ate more candy then u passed out to kids?:	haha yes
Given the candy you dont like to ur parents?:	yup
Gotten fruit on Halloween?:	nope
How about a coupon for McDonalds fries?:	yup
Gotten a full size candy bar instead of the bite size ones?:	yup
Gotten hurt on Halloween?:	hhmm...i dont recall
TP'ed on Halloween?:	no
Gotten TP'd on Halloween?:	no
Waiting last minute to get a costume?:	yup it is cheaper that way
Watch a lot of Horror movies during the entire month of October?:	hhmm sometimes
Watch the ghost shows that are on around Halloween?:	sure why not
Whats ur favorite scary movie?:	oo good one...hhmm....i like the halloween series, my dad got me hooked on those
Least favorite?:	not sure, saw maybe b/c its so gory
Have u ever been scared by a movie?:	yes
Been scared to leave the room after watching a scary movie?:	haha yes signs scared me b/c im totally freaked out by aliens
Been arrested on Halloween?:	no
Been in trouble with the cops on Halloween?:	no
Crossed a black cat on Halloween?:	hhmm...nope
Had a scary movie marathon on Halloween?:	yup
Is Halloween ur favorite holiday?:	nope
Have u ever been a witch for Halloween?:	yup
What about a Vampire?:	yup
Whats ur favorite Halloween candy?:	hhmm...the reeses ghosts or pumpkins
Least favorite?:	hhmm...not sure i have a least favorite...
What candy do u usually get the most?:	tootsie rolls
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Chasing Cars~

So my little sister (big shocker) got me hooked on these guys (Snow Patrol). Their album is awesome...i highly reccomend it and will even let you listen to their stuff on my ipod if you ask me. :-) But this songs lyrics grabbed my attention...so I am sharing them with you.

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

a 4 AM wake up call of a different sort

so typically im thrilled at my 4 am wake up calls b/c its nate calling or "texting" me. (he is in iraq so they are 8 hours ahead of us now.) anyways this morning my mom is making a lot of noise and i hear my doggies at my door and my mom opens my door and lets in the dog and tells me he has to stay b/c the police are coming...now im literally 3/4 asleep so im like...huh?! trying to figure out if its a dream or not so im wide awake but im not leaving my bedroom b/c 1 its cold and 2 if i get up i wont be able to go back to asleep ever so i stayed in bed and after an hour or so i fell asleep again...only to be awoken by jasper at about 5:40 b/c he wanted out of my room...so i made sure it was all good and and my dad said yes and explained we couldnt go near the coputer desk b/c that window had been shattered...im still pretty much asleep so i was like ok whatever and laid back down. when i finally made it downstairs at about 7:30 to head to work i see that yes indeed the window was shattered, id have gotten a picture but i didnt think of it until later. apparently someone thought it was really cool to throw rocks at the window...not sure why and they sure must be determined b/c they had to get through 2 gates in order to do this. so yeah today was a wake up call of a different kind...NOT a fun one.

3 things...

Three things
Three things that scare me
1:	dark
2:	being dropped
3:	getting off a roof and onto a ladder
Three people who make me laugh
1:	tara
2:	jeanna
3:	nate
Three things I love
1:	family
2:	friends
3:	nate :-)
Three things I hate
1:	what if game
2:	deception
3:	media
Three things I dont understand
1:	why the media focuses on negative
2:	my hair
3:	time
Three things i love in a Girls/Boy
1:	nates eyes
2:	nates very very nice arms
3:	nates smile
three ways to best describe my personality
1:	outgoing
2:	spontaneous
3:	trusting
Three things I cant do
1:	play the drums
2:	snowboard
3:	run a marathon
Three favorite movies
1:	twister
2:	how to lose a guy in 10 days
3:	the tigger movie of course :-)
Three Goals for future
1:	be a wonderful wife
2:	be a wonderful mother
3:	go back to honduras
Three of your dumbest moments
1:	after getting hurt playing basketball i got back up and continued to play and made it worse
2:	driving down a 1 way street in downtown chicago the WRONG way
3:	setting the alarm off at work, even though i really didnt know we had one Three People I am tagging 1. LO 2. Jeanna 3. Jen
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im soooooooooo bored....

Odd Facts about ME
DO YOU SNORE?:	no
LOVER OR A FIGHTER?:	lover
WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?:	getting dropped from really high, yet i want to go bungee jumping and sky diving...
AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO BUILDER?:	heck yes i was with my pink legos
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY TV"?:	not for me
DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?:	haha yes i do
WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?:	ok so seriously who isnt a cute baby?
HOW IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?:	well im not single...
WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?:	black and white
DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?:	it depends...
HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?:	haha no but i really really want to
ANY SECRET TALENTS?:	hhmm...i dont know
WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?:	disney :-)
HAVE YOU EATEN SUSHI?:	eeewww nope and i never ever will
HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?:	hahahahaha no
DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?:	yes i give a darn about the ozone lol
HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?:	too many
CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?:	hhmm...zyxwvutsrqponmlkjihgfedcba yes i can
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?:	yes i have
ARE SPEEDO'S HOT?:	hhmm...on nate yes anyone else no!
WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?:	i dont like guns
IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?:	yes
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?:	my hand writing varies on my moods but yes i do
WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?:	nothing at all
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU":	hhmm...well i said I <3>
IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE?:	i dont know is he?
DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?:	haha ive only been to 1 wedding recently, i didnt cry, my mom did though, which means eventually i will
HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?:	scrambled
ARE BLONDES DUMB?:	no...
WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?:	in a land far far away
WHAT TIME IS IT?:	2:21
DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?:	yes i do cutie and beutter and SB
IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?:	some of it is but i love their fries
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?:	at about 7:30 this morning
DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?:	showers unless its a whirlpool tub then baths with lots of bubbles
IS SANTA CLAUSE REAL?:	his spirt is
ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?:	haha you could say so im afraid of what i cant see
WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?:	pumpkim spice lattes, tigger, 7th heaven and gilmore girls
CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?:	creamy
HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?:	hhmm...i dont think so...
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?:	once this morning
IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?:	yes indeed
ARE YOU WEARING SOCKS?:	yes i am
HAVE YOU EVER HITCH HIKED?:	heck no
WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?:	brown
WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:	last night
DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?:	i LOVE my life
WHOSE LIFE IS BETTER?:	what? next question
ARE YOU PSYCHIC?:	no
HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"?:	no
DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?:	clarinet and very very little piano
CAN YOU SKATEBOARD?:	haha i can try to
DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?:	yes its so much fun, u just have to spray the site down to keep the bugs away 1st
DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH?:	hahaha nope
DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?:	in a young girls heart? wow that was random lol
IS A DOG A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?:	hhmm...id have to say yes b/c they love you no matter who you are or what you look like
YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?:	the answer to this is way too long for this survey
CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?:	i can try to moonwalk lol
DOES YOUR MOM KNOW YOU HAVE A MYSPACE?:	yes she does
WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?:	um...cheese and crackers for my lunch
DO YOU WEAR NAILPOLISH?:	on my toes rarely on my fingers
DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?:	yes i sure do
WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?:	id have to say all the political ones
DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?:	nope
FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?:	ooo good question the fray and nickelback
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How awesome is God

He is this awesome...

Last Christmas I gave my boss a jar with cookie mix. She told me thanks but that she didn't celebrate Christmas and she proceeded to tell me she just didn't go to church, that she just didn't believe. From that day forward Each day I pray for her, just that she has a good day, or that she maybe will find Jesus in something. I can't tell you how many times she'd tell me about a struggle and I'd tell her I know you don't believe, but I do and I am praying for you...over and over again, honestly i think many people would have given up...i certainly got quite frustrated at times but God kept nudging me, "be patient be persistent, don't stop" and i continued.

Last Monday we received word her father had a heart attack, we later found out he did not suffer a heart attack but had a massive clot in his lung and that doctor's were amazed that he was still alive. My boss is very close with her family so i knew how hard this must be and i continues on my prayer journey for her and her mother and father and siblings.

today she pulled me into her office (i thought i was being fired...maybe wishful thinking but besides the point) and she looked me straight in the eye and said thanks for your prayers...i could not have made it through without them...my father is alive, he should be dead, and that is a miracle in itself. i look back on many other things i have gone through, the car accident i was in, it could have been worse and killed me but did not, my health problems, and i see now how blessed i am, and i see now that God is present..even if we choose not to see Him...i just want to say thanks...

wow...so let me just say...prayer is powerful and God does listen.

Broken and Beautiful

This song has held my attention from the 1st time i heard it. It's by Mark Schultz. Here are the lyrics:

There’s a businessman, there’s a widowed wife
A smiling face with a shattered life
A teenage girl with a choice to make
It’s crowded here in church today
And the preacher says as the sermon ends
“Please close your eyes, bow your heads
Is there anyone in need of prayer,Oh Jesus wants to meet you here”
Cause we all fall short, and we all have sinned
But when you let, God’s grace break in
(Chorus)It’s Beautiful, Beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful
Well he’d never been to church before
But he came today as a last resort
His world was crashing in
And he was suffocating in his sin
But tears rolled down as hope rushed in
He closed his eyes, raised his hands
Worshipping the God who can
bring him back to life again
(Chorus)And it’s beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heartBroken and beautiful
Cause there’s nothing more beautiful at all
Than when His sons and daughters call, broken
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Come as you are
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Come as you are
(Chorus)Broken and beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heartBroken and beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful
Come as you are
Broken and beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful
Broken and beautiful
Broken and beautiful
Beautiful

I think what I like most about this song is that it reminds us that church isnt just for believers, and that we do make mistakes, but that is what God's grace is there for. The reason I believe that the church building is so important to some is that it is a place where people can go and surrender themselves, it is in a sense a safe haven to them...for those of us more mature in our walks the building is not as important, but i think that the building is imprtant for some.

I am reading this book called God in the Alley...it's a freaking awesome book, I can't remember the author's name...but I actually think i may have met him, im not positive though, when i was in middle school i went on a missions trip to toronto, canada (where this pastor calls home and has his ministry) and worked with homeless people and i am fairly certain we worked with this guy, or at least his colleagues. but it ties in with this song because it is also a reminder that we have to be Jesus to people and sometimes all they want is someone to listen, sometimes all they need is a smile, but we need to get on their level, and we need to be fully present, not just walking up and down the streets mindlessly handin gout food and saying "Jesus loves you" they are looking for a connection, maybe not with God but just another connection, and if you show them Jesus, you have not only connected them to you, but connected them to Jesus, and in doing so I believe that draws us closer to God. Once I finish the book i will blog more about it, most likely that will be this weekend. i have to say my new post-it highlighter is coming in handy :-)

anyways i guess thats all for now :)

choice

So New Comunity last night...amazing...Trace did an awesome job with worship, just amazing, and then Dr. Bob spoke, and the whole time he was speaking I felt as if it was just me and him in the room and God was catching our tears. Dr Bob spoke about his father, his fathers choice he made. This brought up memories of my grandfather. The parallels in Dr Bobs father and my grandfather are kind of scary to me...I forgot at moments the Dr Bob was talking about his dad not my grandfather. My grandfather too had a choice to make, and he made the same choice as Dr Bob's father made..however it was different in the sense that he was too sheepish to completely shut us out of his life, he faked it, for 20 years the man i thought was my grandfather, really wasnt. I didnt learn of his choice he had made until i was 16 or so, but once i learned this everything became crystal clear to me, actions that he had made started to make sense and the pieces fall into place. See my grandfather was a deacon at a local catholic church, he chose to put church 1st, and he chose to hide behind the church. he chose to abuse his family and when confronted he chose to keep running. i will never know whether or not my grandfather loved me. he told my mother on one occassion to her face that "i just cant love you" i cant imagine what my mother felt. One difference between my grandfather and Dr Bob's dad was my grandfather never said sorry, he never regretted his decisions, i remember sitting at the funeral home when you get to spend that hour or so before people start to come and see and i remember feeling my heart break into a million pieces. I remember feeling awful for not seeing him much, i remember the last time i had seen him he was in the hospital about a year earlier and i remember kissing him on the cheek and telling him i love you, (this after he had spent a week there, i had literally dropped everything in illinois and flown home to be here) i remember his last words to me, may God bless you.

Last night was good. Dr Bob has a world of strength and courage to be able to get up there and say what he said, but it was an important message. It was a message to anyone out there who is struggling with this choice...

venting

so i need to vent...and i need to vent like now..so im venting...if you dont want to "listen" then just go on to the next blog..otherwise i guess enjoy?

i dont know where to start on my little rant...a lot has had me really thinking and really pushed to my limit lately. i guess i can start with work.

well i have been with the company for over 3 years now...and i realized a few days ago that never once have i asked for help with my workload, obviously i have needed help with the process of my job and had questions but i have always been able to do my work and get what my tasks were done even if it meant working late or coming in early i got it done. something else i have realized is that over the past 3 years somehow i always have managed to accumulate other peoples work...and lately its getting out of hand. when i am comign in on saturday adn they are at home...and i am working on stuff that is not my responsibility, something is wrong with that...and yesterday it really really got to a point where i couldnt take it anymore. someone was going to be out of the office for 2 days, and when i am getting ready for vacation i clean everything up so nothing is left for anyone else to do...well she informed me she was leaving me 4 or 5 starter files b/c she didnt feel the need to do them and felt i could handle them. i already am coming in saturday to work on a project...so im pretty busy...my desk is not a duming ground for work u dont want to do...ggrr...ok sorry just had to vent about that...

ok so what else...media...

so i havent watched the news in over a month actually probably going on 2 months now. i dont care to. and people assume b/c my boyfriend is in iraq that id watch the news. wrong...all i ever was hearing was how many people have been killed, now what kind of progress we have made over there, not the lives that are being changed b/c we are over there. and from what it sound slike when i hear conversations thats all that they continue to talk about the death toll. anything i know about the war is what nate tells me and it isnt much, pretty much this is what i know..what time he goes out each day, and when i can send my last package...thats it...i dont need to know more or less. so therefore i will continue to not read, watch, or listen to any news of any sort, and really i cant say i miss it all that much.

this is just a general vent lol...

when people support someone you love...dont get mad. dont get jealous. be glad that the person yo ulove has a strong support system which in turn could be your support system God forbid something happen to the person you love. it is much easier to be "alone" with friends then be all alone. just a thought for the day

fun facts..about me!

30 unknown facts/secrets about yourself:
1. In two words, explain what ended your last relationship. his ex-girlfriend
2. When was the last time you shaved your legs?this morning
3. What were you doing this morning at 8am? turning brenda's car headlights off for her
4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?working
5. Are you any good at math?hahahahaha
6. Your prom night? which one?
7.Have you ever met anyone famous? sure have it is great fun, but at the end of the day they are just people like u and me
8. Have you ever taken out a loan to pay for school?nope :)
9. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace profile? I sure do :-)
10. Last thing received in the mail? card from nate :)
11. How many different beverages have you drank today? 1 water
12. Do you ever leave messages on people's voicemail? yes, thats a random question
13. What was your very first concert? Beach Boys and Chicago
14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach? i sure do its loads of fun!
15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had? my wisdom teeth getting pulled...they didnt put me to sleep i was awake the whole time and it was awful!
16. What is out your back door? haha uh...my back yard...
17. Any plans for Friday night?cookout..you had better be there
18. Do you like the ocean?yes but its salty
19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different kinds of popcorn for Christmas?not me personally but my office has and my family has
20. Have you ever been to a planetarium? yup
22. Something you are excited about? Nate coming home!!!
23. What is your favorite flavor of JELL-O? strawberry
24. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?Nope
25. Describe your keychain: um random
26. Where do you keep your change? all over the place
t27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people? um...good question
28. What kind of winter coat do you have? a black one its a poofy coat
29. What was the weather like on your graduation?it was so so nice out sunny and bright!
30. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed? closed, gotta keep the boogey man out somehow...

hhmm...

so days have gone by and no post, welcome to my life...chaotic it is. the days are absorbed by work and the evenings recouprating from work...but im taking a break...im gonna do a "what is going on in my mind" blog with just a list of all my random questions and thoughts...should be fun...

1st off its Monday...its snowing...and if that is not enough i had my "fun" yearly dr appt

1st thought when getting out of bed...its cold...really cold...ok i can do this...

1st thought when getting into the shower...aaahhhhh warmth

1st thought out of the shower...and my mom wonders why i take 20 minute showers...it stinking cold in here

1st thought stepping outside...no snow yet this could be a good day

thought on douglas and SR 23...ok scratch the good day it is now snowing

1st thought when logging into computer at work...i wonder if they have fixed my email problem yet? (nope sure havent, nobody has touched my file since the day i submitted it last week...i now am calling out help desk the helpless heartless desk)

1st thought when i see my drs office...wow these directions literally took me straight to the building...haha i love google maps

1st thought when i get into the exam...just keep smiling itll be over before you know it...and it sure was i was in and out in 15 minutes :)

thoughts on the drive back to work...
-snow stinks
-downtown traffic is awful during the day
-home is only 5 minutes away can i go take a long nap?
-oo man im back already!

i wonder what it would be like if i were in iraq...to be totally out of the loop on what is going on here...this was brought up by a conversation with nate..he has no idea what the movie click was...wow!

itd be nice to go back to honduras on a mission, i have been thinking about this lots lately.

thinking about my trip to disney with nate in february...im so super excited...and we get to go to atlanta too...and we get to ride is bike hehe!! yay for florida

i need to really get my room organized.

i hope it doesnt snow on saturday that would make for a loong awful trip to colfax :(

im excited about going to colfax hehe...thatll be funfun, and i am hoping nina gets to go with me...otherwise ill be boredbored

what kind of activity can we do at the bonfire friday night...

is it 5 yet...ok 2 hours to go i can do it...back to work i guess :)

1st blog

ok this is gonna be short...sorry, im at work, but didnt want to keep peopel hanging lol....not that there is a line of pple waiting to read this or anything...so really all i am gonig to say is that im back to the blog world and i will be trying to blog everyday but if you know me thats a high call so it may be more like every other day or so. i dont really have much to say in this one since i am at work and buried under pils of things to do...what sall i do 1st hhhmmm...well i will catch you all later and probably have something to blog about tonight~