random

so this is a random post...im a random person what can i say..but here are some thoughts i am having today...

i will not miss hearing "is your fast hosed up?"

i will not miss seeing the network go down...

i will miss most of the people i worked with...they make me laugh

i will miss working on computer issues daily...wow did i really think that...

i am looking forward to not having to set my alarm

i am looking forward to volunteering at the homeless center

im looking forward to spending more time with God

im looking forward to long walks

im actually NOT stressing about money..i have all i need...and if i do need something nate will get it for me...

friday its december and the high today is 66?!

tomorrow the high is like 35...big change from 66...im gonna freeze

im excited about lunch tomorrow with my aunt and mother

im still getting used to the idea of not having to request time off...

im still trying to actually believe that when we go to florida...we dont have to be back at any certain time...so it could be a long trip...

i wonder when my back will stop hurting...i dont even remember what that feels like...

i wonder what jasper thinks when we go on walks w/o him...poor boy...hes getting old

i wonder what he thinks when we walk in the door and hes right there waiting

i wonder what im going to go get for lunch...

apparently...i have an accent...

So...Nate has said it and people from Canada and Germany have said it...I have an accent...and apprently I do...i found this on a friends blog and just couldn't resist taking the quiz...do you have an accent?

What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Inland North You may think you speak "Standard English straight out of the dictionary" but when you step away from the Great Lakes you get asked annoying questions like "Are you from Wisconsin?" or "Are you from Chicago?" Chances are you call carbonated drinks "pop."
The Midland
The Northeast
Philadelphia
The South
The West
Boston
North Central
What American accent do you have? Take More Quizzes

u just never know what you will see

so i was at lunch at wendy's in my favorite corner spot where i can watch the cars line up or park in the parking lot and watch the people in the dining area...and a red mustang pulled up...i paid no attention at first...kept picking at my salad...then looked out the window after about 2 minutes...an elderly man was still trying to get out of the car...and his wife was sitting waiting patiently in the driver seat. that was the last thing i expected to see...they get out and shuffle in...it was so adorable...and i dont want to say funny b/c it wasnt funny...but it makes you kinda chuckle...i guess it made my heart smile...you just never know who is behind the wheel of that sportscar behind you in traffic...

stress....

I thought this was a good article about stress...check it out...are you a competitive stresser? Find out here...

i must say i am enjoying browsing msn.com and reading these and other interesting articles...

soundtrack...

I am quite afraid to do this...2200+ songs i have no idea what will show up or if i will even know the song..but it looks like fun...so thanks Corey...let the good times roll...

IF LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
1. PUT YOUR IPOD ON SHUFFLE
2. PRESS PLAY
3. DON'T CHEAT
4. EACH QUESTION, PUSH BUTTON
5. NEXT QUESTION, PUSH FORWARD
6. SERIOUSLY, DON'T CHEAT
Opening Credits: Grace of My Life- Brian Littrell
Waking Up: Hunger for the Great Light- Dave Matthews Band
First Day Of School: Go On and Cry- Diana Degarmo
Falling In Love: Stay- Jeremy Camp
Fight Song: Something's Gotta Give- Leeann Rimes
Breaking Up: Incomplete- Backstreet Boys
Prom: White Ordinary Life- Mark Harris
Graduation: What If- Nicole Nordeman
Life's Ok: Saved By Grace- Shane & Shane
First Day On The Job: Intro (I've Had Enough)- David Crowder Band
Breakdown: Soul Man- Sam and Dave
Driving: Savin Me- Nickelback
Flashback: King- Audio Adrenaline
Getting Back Together: Bus Stop- The Hollies
Birth Of A Child: Mirrors- Mainstay
Wedding: Finding Out- Stellar Kart
Chase Scene: He Will Carry Me- Mark Schultz
Final Battle: Independance Day- Martina McBride
Death Scene: Gloria-Shadows of Knight
Funeral Song: Do They See Jesus in Me- Joy Williams
End Credits: Dear Lord- Sonic Flood
Sequel Trailer: Living in Fast-Forward- Kenny Chesney

*that was fun...some make perfect sense and some songs I am wondering why they are on my iPod...im going to have to meet with my iPod manager and see what is up lol...hope you enjoyed it*

more than this...

so...lately...1 thought that runs through my mind is "there has to be more than this..." this will pop into my head at random times, mostly while i am at work. but it does hopin there at other times too. so i am trying to figure out what "more" is. i think my time off will allow me to answer that question. i was listening to a podcast today from willow (im not addicted to podcasts, and now i have time to be addicted to them...hehe) anyways so i was listenting to this podcast and something that the speaker said was "your true passion is found where you are happiest..." now anyone can say well im happiest on the couch so thats my passion..but thats selfish, i was having a conversation with a friend at church a few weeks ago about my plans and i explained how empty and unfulfilled i felt at my job and how i wanted to work purely for God for a change....money is nice it buys us nice things...BUT when we work out of love and compassion for God...He fills us up with this undescribable feeling and that is all we need to live off of. and that is something i haven't felt in full force since high school when i was going on missions trips and working more with the homeless in south bend. there is just something awesome that happens there...lately while working at 2nd saturday and then helping stuff potatoes into bags..i started to feel that fulfillment again and i long to feel it more..i saw this again at my aunts funeral last wednesday. she never had much. but my aunt glowed with Christ's love and she never let what she did not have hinder her, rather used the love and the life God has blessed her with and touched numerous lives. She literally died with nothing...just a few items of clothing...a purse...and it really made me think...she had discovered something and had dug into that...none of our earthly possessions go to heaven with us, when we die...all that we have materialistically in a sense vanishes...people forget what we had, people will remember how you treated them...and again the stories i heard...my aunt nailed it on the head...all she needed she had in Christ...and she shared that...i want to be more like her...and i have so much...after her funeral i went into my room and just stared at my closet...i have SO MANY material things...my job has provided these things over the years...but they are all things i don't need...well i need clothes but i don't need the same shirt in 5 colors...or the same pair of flip flops in every color made...but thats where my energy i spent at work got poured into...and i dont want that anymore..i want something more...by having this time...im going to be able to focus more on God...more on God's work...more on the direction i am led to...there just has to be more than this...

its been awhile

I haven't blogged for a few days now...I haven't been on the computer much...outside of work. That'll be changing here in the next few days though hopefully I will be able to keep up on blogging. All in all i had a good weekend. My back is almost better and I got a lot done. I even went on a walk outside.I am hoping to get a quick one in tonight as well before it gets dark. we'll see. Not a whole lot has happened that I feel needs to be said on here...I got to see some friends briefly from out of town...hopefully next time i can spend more time with them...but em needed me so i was with her. i have to say the highlight though was getting to spend Friday and Saturday nights both with em...we havent spent much time together lately and it was good to reconnect (even if it was b/c boys are stupid...sometimes) and hang out. her and i just connect on this level it's like shes my big sister i always wanted. and for once...we will be on the same "boyfriend schedule" as her mom puts it so we can double..one thing we have never done together and are both so excited for.

i guess another milestone that occured this weekend was nate getting settled into baghdad...and being done with missions for the remainder of his tour. that is a huge relief. so we have less than a month to go until he is stateside so long as everything stays on track...but getting to talk to him twice this past weekend and twice today has been good. Things are feeling "normal" again for us which is refreshing after the past month.

today i have spent a lot of time shopping for a new phone...i can upgrade again in december so im looking around at what i want/need. im 99% sure i will be getting a wireless headset...those are just really cool..and with all the traveling nate and i will be doing itll come in handy. so far i havent made any solid decisions, there are just way too many phones to choose from.

i really dont know what else i have to babble on and on about...so i guess for now i will close

Thanksgiving...

Since more than likely I will not be around a computer all weekend long due to my back...I will post this now...things in my life I am thankful for...have a great thanksgiving everyone!!

my relationship with God
my family
my GCC hotties
my GCC friends
GCC
the job i have managed to have for over 3 years...and for the ability to trust in God and take some time off to get back on track with Him
my many talents I have been blessed with
Nate
Nate's family
Jasper
my wonderful boss and co workers
the house i have to live in, the food i have to eat
football
the many opportunites i have had to travel over the years, including this past summer to cali and coming up in February Disney World
even though they suck the times I have had to hash things out with God...they have helped me to grow
my car
the opportunitues i have ahead of me to continue to grow as a person and with nate
the other "mom and dad" in my life

ok there are many more...but im going to call it a day and go rest my back for an hour before my aunta funeral...have a great Thanksgiving!

verse of the day...

“Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.”- Colossians 3:15

Good stuff right here...something I needed to be reminded of and something i need to chew on. Right now I have been struggling with a certain someone and it seems that no matter how hard i try i cant let love rule in my heart..i keep getting stomped on and walked all over...but i should not let the emotions that come with that take over...i need to love unconditionally and let God handle the conflict in His time, not mine. I need to not judge. It is so hard when you have things thrown back at you to just sit back and "turn the other cheek", just to get it slapped...so hard...This has been a struggle in my life for a long time. For now I am gonig to work on letting God in and letting love rule in my heart...baby steps...i need to say i love you to this person a lot more...like in snow patrols song "those 3 words, are used too much, or not enough..." in this case, not enough....

random updates on various areas of my life

nate will be home in appx 31 days

i will get to see nate in appx 35-36 days (of course subject to changing)

my back still hurts...a lot...

my aunt's funeral is today at 1:00

this thanksgiving we are going to my parents church to eat there...

i cannot remember the last time i didnt go shopping the day after thanksgiving, but there is no way i will be heading out im in too much pain

im bored with my hair already...so im trying to think of what i can do next, but i must wait until its closer to nate arriving

my iPod now has over 2200 songs or so...i think i listen to maybe 10% of them lol...need to do the shuffle a little more often

i am almost finished with Jesus Freaks...I highly suggest reading this book, it is very good...it ha me thinking a lot about my faith

i am thinking that until nate comes home i am going to do some volunteer work somewhere just not sure where yet...i have a few ideas

k thats all i can think of....did i mention my back still hurts A LOT?

OUCH!!!!!

so Sunday I woke up with this extremely intense pain in my lower back...I can say I have never experienced pain quite like this before and can say that this is the worst pain, if not worse than when I injured my knees in middle/high school. NOTHING helped, heating pads, aleve, tylenol, nothing...so today off to the doctor i went..thinking maybe he'd have some genius answer to all my problems and flick his magic wand and make it all go away...haha i wish it were so easy. they ran a few tests and he would poke me and ask if it hurt (just in case it momentarily stopped hurting...) and decided i have a low grade infection (i was running a slight fever as well...weird but OK) and gave me 2 prescriptions which i hope are miracle drugs b/c they were expensive...after my appointment i ran to walmart dropped off my prescriptions and got some more of the heating wraps i had bought yesterday but left at home and i highly recommend them, they didnt take my pain away but they stay warm for the full 8 hours they say they will and stay in place fairly well...then it was back to work to suffer through 3 more hours and then off to home and the couch to let my medications take my pain slowly away...so i can hope...time to go home so i will ttyl :)

1. Height? 5'3
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? heck no
3. Do you own a gun? nope and i never will
4. How do you take your tea? i dont like tea
5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"? not really...they always love me...and some stalk me way after the relationship is over...
6. What do you think of hot dogs? Only good grilled
7. What's your favorite Christmas song? Drummer Boy
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Milk or water
9. Can you do push ups? sure can
10. Is your bathroom clean? no i have 2 sisters who dont pick up after themselves
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? sandal necklace from parents
12. Do you like painkillers? not really...it takes a lot of pain for me to take them
13. What is the best concert you've been to? TobyMac
14. Do you have A.D.D.? i have been officially diagnosed...but ask anyone i know well...i am
15. Does anyone in your immediate family have a history of psychosis? uh no
16. Middle Name? Elizabeth
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?1. Only less than 1 day until nate can call me more often. 2. i dont want to go get my car worked on tonight3. can't wait for new years...everyone is going to be here!
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought:1. ribbon magnet for my car 2. nate's christmas gift 3. mcdonalds on wednesday
19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:1. Water 2. Milk 3. starbucks
20. Do you think you're attractive? it depends on when in the month u ask me
21. Have you ever lied? I think everyone has...2
2. Current worry? do i need to tell you...ok i will...iraq
23. Current hate? war
24. Favorite place to be? somewhere warm and tropical or i can handle with the people i love
25. Least favorite place to be? right now...work
26. Where would you like to go? haha right now...again must i say i think u know
27. Do you own slippers? Sure do!
28. What shirt are you wearing? my pink iraq one
29. Do you burn or tan? usually tan but sometimes Both
30. Favorite color(s)? pink and teal
31. Would you be a pirate? No but Johnny Depp sure is hot as one haha yes jeanna i must agree remind u to show u my ipod...
32. What is or are your guiltiest pleasure(s)? chocolate cake shake
33. What songs do you sing in the shower?me..sing in the shower...never haha
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? bed bugs
35. What's in your pockets right now? ipod
36. Last thing that made you laugh? really laugh hard hannah on wednesday night
37. Last thing that made you cry? my mom and sister
38. Worst injury you've ever had? knee injury....let me warn u..when u hear something pop...dont keep playing...stop...
39. How many tv's do you have in your house?4 or 5
40. What was your first pet's name? gosh..goldie...i think
41. Who is your loudest friend? Laura or dave
42. Who is your most silent friend? Rich! But when he talks, listen up cuz its gonna either be important or flipping hilarious!
43. Does someone have a crush on you? i think i can safely say my boyfriend does :)
44. Do you wish on shooting stars? ive seen 1 before...and yes i made a wish
45. What is your favorite book? right now its Jesus Freaks
46. Favorite candy? not a big candy eater
47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? Everything by Lifehouse
48. What song do you want played at your funeral? wow...something to be proud of maybe...i dont know though...good question
49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?staring at the ceiling listening to kem (it usually can put me to sleep) but it didnt work...
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? 1 more day...1 more day

frustrated

from time to time..i get frustrated...it happens, it is a part of life...but last night...i think i can honestly say i never have been as frustrated as i was in the moment when it all started....being frustrated, feeling helpless, not being able to talk to the 1 person you really want to, not being able to get a hug...from anyone, let alone the 1 person i reanny wanted a hug from...i am not going to name names, most of you will figure it out as you will most likely hear the story from me, others can just guess...it isnt all that important anyways.

for the sake of everyone's sanity that is going to read this ill change names so it makes sense...

lsat night me and anne got into a huge fight...i mean it was bad...i was driving down cleveland (in between portage adn 933) going about 45 and its dark and rainy. i was crying, yelling, listening to my ipod, and just trapped by the argument....marie chimed in and very fast it became 2 vs 1...which was not my intention of the conversation...i just wanted to nail some points down and try to open a line of communication that seems to have been closed for a long time...well yeah instead of doing that somehow i think it managed to get barricaded by HUGE rocks and such. it was bad...so anne later drags mary into this and then she starts to say some very hurtful things at me, things from my past, things i already had come to accept i had been wrong...and already worked on fixing....and finally mary says the 1 thing that just put me over the edge..."i think you are jealous of anne's good relationship" whoah....no...and mary knows this is not the case. i left...i walked very rapidly on the treadmill blasting songs on my ipod...(this is how i best relieve stress) but that didnt work...i was so frustrated...something i had tried to fix somehow broke into even more pieces. needless to say i was in bed at 8:30 listening to nate's and my favorite songs and staring at the ceiling. in her eyes i will never measure up...no matter what i try to do...im never good enough. (and i kept playing tings that happened in my head over and over again) and everything that happens, its my fault. sure i'll take part blame but its just as much annes fault as my own. i woke up feeling a little better...but still extremely frustrated and that is something that wont go away for awhile i figure...things seem to be under construction so hopefully they get better...

history

so I am going to take you back...back to the day when it all started with Metropolitan Title Company

July 14, 2003. I received a phone call from Paige Personnel saying that they had a company that wanted me to start the next day. OK no problem, except that I need to get out there....

So I packed my things and took off for Carol Stream Illinois where I was going to move in with an apartment full of boys and Nina..and soon to be Tristan.

July 15, 2003...the journey begins, I trek out to find this place Metropolitan Title Company (I remember thinking what the frick is a title company...i wonder what they do...at least what im doing sounds interesting (imaging specialist)...so I arrive and it was literally not even 5 minutes from our apartment which was sweet! I get there and Henry greets me...he tells me to follow him all the way to the back of the office in the conference room. they had no toher space for me...and let me tell you...i think thats where i lost my sanity. Some guy who was the IT guru was finishing up settiny my PC up with dual monitors...now that was weird at 1st but now i dont know how i am going to live without them. he introduced himself as wes. and for whatever reason for a few weeks he scared me i wouldnt talk to him...and thats where i learned how to solve my own computer problems....anyways back to my 1st day Henry sits down with me and pretty much admits he has no idea how to do what im going to do, its never been done before never been tested by anyone in the office so we were going to learn together. at that exact moment i was like what did i get myself into? well we figured it out and for about 5 months thats all i did, scan papaers into a computer...mind u this scanner is junk, very expensive byt for high volume its junk. i think i remember wes telling me it was a $3000 scanner. anyways after about 5 months i get moved to the front of the office in a corner.

After that move i was upgraded to a much faster scanner and started to work with wes and tony on a beta project...wes and i became very close friends. although we never hung out outside of work we became good friends..id spend hours talking to him in his office about stupid stuff, oh the fun we had...playing with the servers and so on. tony and i became close but i only met him a few times, we spent hours on the phone, i think the longest was 3 hours trying to figure a problem out. anyone that has to deal with troubleshooting computers...3 hours on the phone with someone to doso is painful...so u talk about other things to forget about the stupid computer. wes also taught me a very important lesson..when throwing a computer out a window...DO NOT throw it through thick glass, it has to be the thin type...otherwise the computer wont break through...and no i never did test this theory but its always in the back of my mind when i am thinking about tossing a pc out the window.

I was soon promoted to order entry...which was good...and i also inherited 2 desks b/c i still scanned docs, yeah i had 2 full time tasks...but that only lasted about 2 months then they hired someone to take over scanning.

i then moved to the front of the office by vickie and rebecca. very exciting. BUT i learned to hate this seat i inherited back up receptionist....ick! that is one thing i despise...because of the very reason it sucks up your day...and throws you off of what you were doing...no fun.

so a few months later we are having our roof fixed...and on a certain day about noon or so it starts to look like its going to storm...bad..but the guys assured us that they copvered everything up and it would not leak in...ok no worries...hehe well it started to rain adn i mean like buckets of water raining so hard and it was so windy it was raining almost horizontally...and all of a sudden i hear "im leaking..." my boss had drops of water coming in...then literally like 5 minutes later it started to POUR in her office...ive never moved so fast in my life before...well then it starts drizzling in 2 other examiners offices...meanwhile our v.p. is on the phone with the company doing the roof explaining they were going to need to come down and fix this like now....it was pure chaos....BUT it gets better...our computer room starts to leak...NOT good, i mean literally all the servers for WI and IL are in here...among other things...again NOT GOOD...so imagine 5 pple frantically trying to tarp over them and shut things down that could go down...just pure chaos but it gets even better...someone went back to the conference room where we had about 100 computers stored adn 50 or 60 flat panel monitors stored...yup you guessed it we heard this from the back room "oh my gosh they're all going to be ruined" rain was coming in directly over about 60% of the computers adn monitors....so again this time imagine 12 pple heaving computers up off the floor onto the tables away from the water and covering them with a tarp...seriously it was insane. i will never forget that day ever.

ok well thats enough history for 1 day i think...more to come later :-)

Breast Cancer Petition

Go HERE and read about this petition and sign it. I typically don't do this...but this is very important and an issue I hold close to me as I have lost family to Breast Cancer.

randomness...im so bored..oh so bored

1.How old will you be in five years? 27...wowser!
2. Do you think you will be married by then? yes, unless God has another idea
3. How tall are you? 5'3
4. What do you look forward to the most in the next 6 weeks?
teehee! nate will be getting home!!!! yeah less than 6 weeks..actually 5 weeks today!
5. What's the last movie you saw? um...i watched POC on my iPod it was cool!
6. Who was the last person you called? Em
7. Who was the last person to call you? Stephen, but I couldn't pick up
8. What was the last text message you received? from tara about wendys
9. Do you prefer to call or text? depends on who adn what the deal is, texting is nice b/c the person doesnt have to stop what they are doing if they dont want to or cant
10. Do you have any pets? yes my lil boy jasper
11. What were you doing at 12am last night? trying to sleep
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? just celebrated 25 years of marriage
13. When is the last time you saw your mom? This morning
14. What color are your eyes? brown
15. What time did you wake up today? 6:09
16. What are you wearing right now? khakis and a pink fleece
17. What's your favorite Christmas song? Little Drummer Boy
18. Where is your favorite place to be? around people who love me
19. Where is your least favorite place to be? aroun dpeople who don't like me...ok j/k somewhere where i feel out of place
20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere? Iraq and I'd bring nate back with me right now
21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? hhmm good question
22. Do you tan or burn? typically i tan, i might burn once but then its smooth sailing the rest of the summer
23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? um...bed bugs
24. What was the last thing that made you laugh? HB and my boss
25. How many TVs do you have? 5
26. How big is your bed? twin size, soon to be king sized hehe
27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer? desktop
28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?haha wouldnt u like to know...
29. What color are your sheets? red adn tan plaid
30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2
31. What is your favorite season? summer
32. What do you like about fall? the colors
33. What do you like about winter? nothing at all..except maybe this winter..i like the fact ill get to spend it with EVERYONE i love
34. What do you like about the summer? BEACH BEACH BEACH and being tan
35. What do you like about spring? the fact that most of the time the snow is gone
36. How many states have you lived in? 3
37. How many cities/towns have you lived in? 5
38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet? bare feet in summer and shoes in winter :-(
39. Are you a social person? for the most part yes, i have my moments though
40. What was the last thing you ate? gordita and it was quite yummy
41. What is your favorite restaurant? TGI Fridays and Hacienda
42. What is your favorite ice cream? anyting with lots of chocolate
43. What is your favorite dessert? oh gosh...again anything with lots of chocolate
44. What is your favorite kind of soup? cream of brocolli
45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich? grape or strawbwrry
(Where's 46???)

47. Do you like coffee? i like the frou frou drinks

48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?10ish
49. What do you drink in the morning? during the week water on the weekends milk
50. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? for now alone

51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? i fall asleep however im comfortable, no particulare way
52. Do you know how to play poker? nope and dont care to learn
53. Do you like to cuddle? YES
54. Have you ever been to Canada? yes a few times i LOVE it
55. Do you have an addictive personality? haha when it comes to clothes and shoes yes i do
56. Do you eat out or at home more often? depends on my schedule

(Where's 57??)

58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? yup a few pple
59. Do you want kids? haha...depends on what children ive been around recently
60. Do you speak any other languages? ich sprechen zie deutsche(German)

61. Have you ever gotten stitches? yup on my head
62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? Nope
63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool? haha either is good for me..just dont talk and go under water in hte ocean..its extremely salty...
64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat? depends on who im sitting next to
65. Do you know how to drive stick? no..i think im too a.d.d. for that
66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on? hehe my b.f. and gifts for friends/family
67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7? nope
68. What is your favorite TV show? i cant narrow it down to 1
69. Can you roll your tongue? Nope
70. Who is the funniest person you know? lo, HB and nate
71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? well i used to sleep with my fav tigger but hes in mosul right now...
72. What is the main ring tone on your phone? you and me by lifehouse
73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little? how little
74. What color are your bedroom walls? white
75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth? yup
76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Open
77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees? do i really need to pick...cuz neither sounds inviting to me at all
78. Do you flirt a lot? heck no i dont
79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? ok 1 i only will eat wendys chickn nuggest to clarify and their bbq sauce
80. What is your favorite food? pasta and mexican
81. Can you change the oil on a car? ronflmao hahahaha...thats a BIG no
82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket? not a speeding ticket, supposedly i was following too close...whatever
83. Have you ever run out of gas? Nope!
84. What is your usual bedtime? lately on week nights about 9:30 or so weekends whenever i crash

(Where's 85?)

86. Do you read the newspaper? no
87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? nope
88. Best comedian? i have a lot of favorites
89. Do you watch soap operas? Nope
90. Do you dance in the car? haha yes yes i do...its great fun!

Freedom of a different kind

So today was a BIG day for me...last night i decided i was turning my notice in...i had planned on waiting until December but I just couldn't take it anymore, I dread coming to work, so it is time to get out. Plus this gives me extra time to get things ready for Nate and I can help my family out some. I am quite excited about this. I gave my notice to my boss...and she had tears in her eyes. She was sad to see me go but understands. I've been under so much stress as have most of us here and she expects to see much more of it. She said that they are gonig to want to try to keep me. I told her no amount of money would make me stay. I just was unhappy there. walking out of that office I felt this new sense of freedom. Finally, I can do some things for myself and finally I can live on my timetable not theirs. I am free.

fun fact

this was on my fun fact calendar today and i thought it would be nice to share it...i didnt know this adn i thought hhmm i wonder who else does not know this...so here we go...put your learning caps on...

That famous hillside Hollywood sign started out in 1923 as Hollywoodland, a kind of billboard for a housing development.

BUT when the sign began to fall aprt from neglect (imagine that) in the 1940s, civic leaders stepped in. They got the bright idea of removing the lasy syllable, fixing up the rest and using it to advertise the movie industry...pretty cool huh?!

well i thought so at least lol...what can i say im a geek for stuff like that

hehe i just had to share this blonde joke... :-)

An Irishman, a Mexican and a Blonde Guy were doing construction work on scaffolding on the 20th floor of a building.

They were eating lunch and the Irishman said, "Corned beef and cabbage! If I get corned beef and cabbage one more time for lunch, I'm going to jump off this building."
The Mexican opened his lunch box and exclaimed, "Burritos again! If I get burritos one more time I'm going to jump off, too."
The blonde opened his lunch and said, " Bologna again! If I geta bologna sandwich one more time, I'm jumping too."

The next day, the Irishman opened his lunch box, saw corned beefand cabbage, and jumped to his death.
The Mexican opened his lunch, saw a burrito, and jumped, too.
The blonde guy opened his lunch, saw the bologna and jumped to his death as well.

At the funeral, the Irishman's wife was weeping. She said, "If I'd known how really tired he was of corned beef and cabbage, I never would have given it to him again!"
The Mexican's wife also wept and said, "I could have given him tacos or enchiladas! I didn't realize he hated burritos so much."

(Oh this is GOOD!!)?


Everyone turned and stared at the blonde's wife.

The blonde'swife said,

"Don't look at me. He makes his own lunch .."

sometimes we make plans...and God laughs

I LOVE this quote...it has to be so true and it makes me chuckle thinking of God's thoughts on some of our plans. I heard it on 7th Heaven, Annie says it in reference to them taking in a few street kids, after almost being empty nesters. it really makes me think and makes me grateful that God is in complete control. God has awesome things in sotre for us far beyond our imagination...and He won't let us settle. I look back at things that had been planned in my life...at 1 point yes i was engaged...ring and all...even i look back on that and laugh, i planned on going to cedar point with nels after boot camp..God must have been rolling on the floor with that 1 b/c not even 2 months later nate books a trip to DISNEY for us...and God must have been laughing his head off while i was with nels...now i think he smiles b/c He brought nate into my life and he is just beyond wonderful in so many ways. i got involoved in youth group in high school but not wanting much to do with it and God sent me to Honduras...i planned to just skate through those years but God challenged me and blessed me with many opportunities. ive tried holding onto things i KNOW i have NO control over and in these situations i think God just quietly laughs...not in a mean way but in a fatherly way...and He is always there when we fall...He always will meet us where we are, if you think about it that is one of the few places He can meet us...if you are on one path you aren't going to find God on another one...if you are headed in 1 direction you won't find God behind you but waiting for you...He meets us where we are, everyone of us. Something I am learning everyday is that it is not easy letting God guide your life it is challenging. and just when things start to coast..God sends a little wake up call...He nudges us. so anyways just think if you have something plans...and it doesn't work out...its OK God is going to bring something much bigger and better along...He will pour His blessings out upon you :-)

3 things...volume 2

Three things that scare me
1. feverish nightmares
2. sometimes the unknown
3. driving in the rain/snow
Three people who make me laugh
1. Lo still cracks me up
2. HB
3. Nate sent me a letter that i got friday...and i must say he had me laughing pretty hard
Three things that I love
1. GOD
2. Family and Friends
3. Nate, sorry boring same as before but all true
Three things that I hate
1. being sick for 5 days (yup im still feeling quite ill
2.Getting out of bed when it is cold (or at all)
3.when i don't make time for my friends/family
Three things I dont understand
1. war
2. why people are so cruel sometimes
3. expectations people put on their friendships
Three things I love in a Girl/Boy (i'll try to switch it up)
1. so i LOVE the fact nate has to send me pics of his new suits
2. his dimples
3. i LOVE how he makes the little things a big deal...like a card i sent him or a random email
Three ways to best describe my personality
1. Random
2. organized
3. go,go,go
Three things I cant do
1. Snowboard ...Im going to learn this season ...YAY!
2. sleep more than 4 hours straight
3. go 1 hour w/o knowing where my cell phone is
1.Wedding Crashers
2.Pirates of the Carribean
3. American Pie
Three goals for your future
1. move out (its coming around the corner woohoo!)
2. make 1 person smile each day
3. coach a sports team for a local organization w/ nate
Three of your dumbest moments (i have actually had 3 new ones since i have done this)
1. while holding my toothbrush and toothpaste in hand, ask hannah what happened to my toothpaste and toothbrush (possibly effects of nyquil"
2. while watching the ND game on saturday my mom asks "whatcha watching" i reply "7th heaven" (again must have been either the effects of my drugs...or too much Tv had fried my brain
3. the doctor asks "are you taking any drugs" I reply quite aggitated "didn't you just ask me that" he says "no, but you did have to fill out any drugs you were taking to help with the symptoms" i say "ooo...wow...i swears you just asked me that though...wow ok then...."
Three people im tagging
1.Tara
2. Stephanie L.
3. Nina

facebook

yup i did it, im on facebook..not sure how often ill be there...but ive got it..solook me up and leave me a note or however it works :-)

sick...tears...i'm random i know this

so tuesday it all starts i start to get the oh so wonderful feeling of being sick...i made it to bed by 8:30 as if i could somehow stop it from happening...well wednesday i felt awful but brushed it off went to work a dentist appointment and back to work...then my boss told me i felt feverish and sent me home which is where i have been the past 2 and a half days, ive beem having awful sleep and from 3:30 on wednesday until 9:am on thursday i pretty much slept with the exception of getting up to go to the bathroom or get water...and with the help of nyquil. it was much needed rest as life is hectic for me right now.

i wont go into too many details here but ive had another sort of struggle with God this week...ive been holding onto something i needed to let go into His hands but i felt that if i did id lose control, when in reality i had no control over it to begin with...but somehow my little mind thought that by holding on to it i would have some sort of control..its human nature i think, we want to fix everything, at least i know thats my nature...anyways i let go yesterday afternoon in a tearful and very emotional fit, the weird thing was, I could feel God there with me...i could feel Him wrapping me up close to Him and as i looked down at my Bible pages...my tears were not hitting them...they kind of dissovled i guess, it was as if God was catching them and holding them close to His heart. i have to say it was the most awesome moment i have had with God in a long time...never think u are all alone because God is there each step of the way with you not watching over you but walking with you.

and lastly this is why my sister does all the ipod stuff...somehow in the process of adding 1 tv show i deleted all 2000 songs off of my ipod....:-( yes i was quite saddened but i am now in the process of syncing the ipod with my itunes music library so hopefully in a few minutes all will be well again...but for a moment i almost vomited....thats a lot of music to just disappear...i think from now on i will let the HB handle all my music/ipod stuff...its just safer that way.

ok time to go watch my 1st downloaded tv show Law and Order SVU :-)

im sick...again :-(

so i NEVER ever get sick adn this is the 2nd time in less than 2 months I am sick again and i think its whatever i had before...i feel like crap!! So it looks like tonight i have a date with some nyquil...fun fun. and to make things even mor efun i had a dentist appt today, which actually went very well...the hygienest told me i had the prettiest teeth ever...i was kinda shocked but ok i'll take it lol. so on that note i highly reccomend the listerine prebrush whitening stuff...it works pretty darn well :-) and no cavaties for me...22 years and not a one, woohoo!! ok thats all i have to try to get focused back on work.