Sunday, December 24, 2006
the wait is over, well almost
Nate made it home safe and sound. I got a call around 4 this morning. I can't even explain the flood of emotions that came over me when I got that call. I feel as if a huge weight was lifted off of my shoulders. If I miss a call now it is OK, b/c i can call him back now, when I hear of attacks in Iraq i dont need to panic. this time has taught me sooo much about so many different things. Patience is key in everything. and so is trust, trust in those close to you and in God. Bono has said something that sticks with me each day...Gpd always answers our prayers, sometimes it just isnt the answer we wanted. God wants only the very best for each of us so it takes time to get to that point in our lives. God shapes us and molds us in His image.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
patience
patience...its something i think a lot of us struggle with, moreso in certain situations than others. right now God is teachingme patience of a new kind...i don't like waiting...period, waiting in line, for food, in traffic, to go on a ride...waiting is just no fun...sometimes if it catches me on a good day, i dont mind, i use the time to sort thoughts out and pray and so on...but waiting in general can make a person go crazy...if we dont let go...and let God in and let Him handle it. we can wait and wait for something and if it isnt Gods timing, it wont happen, not until that perfect moment God has set aside for it. im slowly learning that waiting can be a good thing. its brought me a lot closer to God, to family, to nate, to friends. waiting, patience...i have waited over 3 months fo rnate and now today seems to have just literally dragged, just waiting for that call..."im home" my mind is totally wrapped around that moment, and it hasnt even happened yet. in an effort to totally get my mind off of this...and due to not feeling so well i took nyquil...which will hopefully let me get a full 8 hours of sleep, instead of the 2 or 3 i have been getting. Here are 2 verses i have been praying over and reflecting in...
Habakkuk 2:3 For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
it speaks of the end
and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
it will certainly come and will not delay.
Psalm 62:2 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
Habakkuk 2:3 For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
it speaks of the end
and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
it will certainly come and will not delay.
Psalm 62:2 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
tis the season
so last night me and hannah and em were at T J Maxx and i notice em intently listening to something...ask what then see what, a lady was trying to return a purse, but she did not have a receipt, thus they ca nonly give her the amount that the purse was now on sale for, although the lady assured the gentleman quite loudly and obnoxiously that she paid way more than that and was going to be sick. he told her he would be happy to give her what she paid if she had her receipt....this went on then she was asking about some shirt....and she was rude, both em and i have worked retail before so we both know how that goes...its not fun, expecially around this time of the year, some peopel feel as if you owe them something b/c they are under all this pressure to do this, this, and this while juggling this and this....for some reason around this holiday pple rush around like its crazy...traffic is a nightmare and some people just forget their manners in bed every morning. anyways just thought id pass around my 1st encounter of an angry holiday shopper...fun indeed. ok now im off to work on this blanket
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
something i learned...
so today started off quite interesting...1st technically it started literally at midnight i never fell asleep...i laid in bed all night long...so i am now running on fumes. it amazes me how God uses us...i am never really surprised b/c i dont underestimate Him...i know He will use us where we are needed. and sometimes we have to swallow our pride big time and suck it up to help someone else. i never back down from the challenge of doing this and God pulled through on both sides of this certain situation and i am so blessed...when things are good God says no they arent good enough, make them better...kinda like Jeanna said in a post she wrote recently...God whacks us upside the head sometimes and in a way i think thats what happened to me and somebody else today...and the best thing about it was that afterwards we were so much closer. i think both of us realized what we had and that we had a best friend that would be there no matter what the circumstance...God is pretty cool, even if sometimes we have to get through a little rain 1st seeing the rainbow at the end makes it all worthwhile...so when you have rain, dance in it, make the most of it...the rainbow will come
gut feelings
so the past few days i have not been myself...brooke called me out on that last night...and i just said w/o thinking yeah im just tired...which was true i think over the past 3 days ive gotten maybe 4 or 5 hours of sleep. my mind has been racing with so many thoughts. to top off not sleeping my stomach hasnt been right my gut has been telling me something bigger than me is going on...and usually when i get that feeling im not wrong. and i wasnt. so now all i can do is listen to my iPod, wrestle things over with God and see what is next...whatever it is i know God will nto let me down i know its great.
Friday, December 08, 2006
dont ASSume
so from time to time i catch myself assuming...and sometimes i let it totally control my thought process...the assumption of 1 thing takes over and i am compelled by this 1 thought, every action is based around it...boy oh boy is God laughing at me now...i assumed big time...and i was wrong...way wrong. i totally spent 2 hours listening to my iPod and arguing with God...and God was just laughing at me...right now i feel like my faith had been reduced to a mustard seed, maybe smaller if possible. satan was winning that battle for awhile...but God came around He saw my need and filled it. even though i had fallen off my path God brought me back...so moral of the story is..what they say is true "don't assume, you will make an ass out of u and me
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Free to Forgive
So I listened to Part 2 in the Life Rules series, took a little longer b/c things got hectic but it was soooo good...i took a ton of notes so i figured id share them with you..and if you have time, you really should download this series..its so good...podcasts are so addicting hehe...
Ephesians 4:31Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. 32Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.
in our world primarily when the going gets tough we start talking...this is not good
our life rules help progress and keep the peace.
we have 3 sets of rules we follow:
rules that are handed down to us
cultural rules
intuitive rules
We need to remember to do unto others as has been done unto us by our Heavenly Father
We need to have forgivemess grace mercy unconditional acceptance of others
We need to remember that Paul was writing this letter from a prison and he was betrayed by close family members and family..we can not say he doesnt know our circumstances...he wwent through the same thing if not worse
Paul thinks its possible to get rid of this stuff we carry; and it wont cost you ANYTHING to explore getting rid of it
Forgiveness is 2 things...1 a decision we make 2 making the decision that someone does not owe you anymore, you cancel the debt
When we are hurt by someone, we lose something and can never get it back; we need to make it a habit to forgive and live in that lifestyle
Forgiveness doesnt make sense unless you are a forgiven person
Forgive just ask Christ forgave us
Do not forgive b/c they deserve to be forgiven but b/c we have been forgiven...at the cross we lost our excuse not to forgive
3 steps to forgiveness:
1. identify the people you are angry with
2. determine what they oew you
3. Just cancel the debt
when you are angry with someone or someone has wronged you...they have left a hook in you and have control over you...it is up to you to remove that hook adn let them lose the control they have over you
** person who hurt you CAN NOT set you free...only God can set you free
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So this was a good refresher for me...as many of you know i had a rough summer and made a decision to forgive in a very unlikely situation...and as many of you saw God healed me and God did set me free after i made that choice. forgiveness is a lifestyle i have tried my hardest to live in, i dont see the point in holding onto any past things or grudges...i dont look at things ive done and regret...everything i have gone through and every decision i have made has led me right to where i am now...and i feel right now i am so much closer to God than i have ever been. nobody is perfect though and its so hard to just let things go a lot of the time...it is so hard to fill a void that somebody left, but i assure you with practice and once you are able to toally forgive someone God will fill that void...
Ephesians 4:31Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. 32Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.
in our world primarily when the going gets tough we start talking...this is not good
our life rules help progress and keep the peace.
we have 3 sets of rules we follow:
rules that are handed down to us
cultural rules
intuitive rules
We need to remember to do unto others as has been done unto us by our Heavenly Father
We need to have forgivemess grace mercy unconditional acceptance of others
We need to remember that Paul was writing this letter from a prison and he was betrayed by close family members and family..we can not say he doesnt know our circumstances...he wwent through the same thing if not worse
Paul thinks its possible to get rid of this stuff we carry; and it wont cost you ANYTHING to explore getting rid of it
Forgiveness is 2 things...1 a decision we make 2 making the decision that someone does not owe you anymore, you cancel the debt
When we are hurt by someone, we lose something and can never get it back; we need to make it a habit to forgive and live in that lifestyle
Forgiveness doesnt make sense unless you are a forgiven person
Forgive just ask Christ forgave us
Do not forgive b/c they deserve to be forgiven but b/c we have been forgiven...at the cross we lost our excuse not to forgive
3 steps to forgiveness:
1. identify the people you are angry with
2. determine what they oew you
3. Just cancel the debt
when you are angry with someone or someone has wronged you...they have left a hook in you and have control over you...it is up to you to remove that hook adn let them lose the control they have over you
** person who hurt you CAN NOT set you free...only God can set you free
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So this was a good refresher for me...as many of you know i had a rough summer and made a decision to forgive in a very unlikely situation...and as many of you saw God healed me and God did set me free after i made that choice. forgiveness is a lifestyle i have tried my hardest to live in, i dont see the point in holding onto any past things or grudges...i dont look at things ive done and regret...everything i have gone through and every decision i have made has led me right to where i am now...and i feel right now i am so much closer to God than i have ever been. nobody is perfect though and its so hard to just let things go a lot of the time...it is so hard to fill a void that somebody left, but i assure you with practice and once you are able to toally forgive someone God will fill that void...
Monday, December 04, 2006
Rules of Engagement
So I downloaded a ton of podcasts and one of them was from North Point Ministries...I have the series Life Rules. I listened to the 1st installment called Rules Of Engagement and Andy Stanley delivered an awesome message, I'll share my notes. I can't wait to listen to part 2 :-)
Ephesians 4
Unity in the Body of Christ
1As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. 2Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. 3Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. 4There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to one hope when you were called— (this is where he drew most of his sermon from)
In our lives a lot of times there is a difference between how we relate to people and God, when all God wants is to draw them into one.
Your relationship with God is determined by the people God puts in your life and how you interact with them
Don't talk to God and give your offering until you have settled your earthly battles
You cannot divorce the 2 relationships you must treat them as 1
People will know you follow Jesus by how you treat them and interact with them not by how many services you attend or how often you open your Bible (Actions speak louder than words...they cannot see your heart, only God can, they can see your actions)
it is easier to have just religion than a relationship, with relationships come pain and suffering and trials..
When you say yes to God, you say yes to the lifestyle changes He requires of you, you are saying that yes i am worthy of this invitation.
God humbled Himself for us...Christ His only son died on a cross for us and for our sins
I must do for others what was done for me through Christ
We need to be gentle, patient, and preserve our relationships.
When things become unbearable, you must remove the anger from the person and remember how patient God has been with you...you must show that same patience and perseverance...
DO NOT bail out on relationships and DO NOT give up because of a lack of progress
When we lose sight of the invitation, that is when we fail in our earthly relationships and in the times when it is hard to see that is when God measures our real and true understanding of Christ.
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I needed to hear some of these things again. Right now me and a few friends are struggling with patience in a certain relationship we have with a few people. This taught me that I need to be patient, I need to remain calm and try to preserve the relationship i have with the person. It also reminded me of how important treating our relationship with God the same as the one we have with our neighbor. God wants to know us..He wants us to cry out to Him ad He wants to rejoice with us and He wants to cry with us. He just wants to be our daddy like Rob said it a few weeks ago.
Ephesians 4
Unity in the Body of Christ
1As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. 2Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. 3Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. 4There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to one hope when you were called— (this is where he drew most of his sermon from)
In our lives a lot of times there is a difference between how we relate to people and God, when all God wants is to draw them into one.
Your relationship with God is determined by the people God puts in your life and how you interact with them
Don't talk to God and give your offering until you have settled your earthly battles
You cannot divorce the 2 relationships you must treat them as 1
People will know you follow Jesus by how you treat them and interact with them not by how many services you attend or how often you open your Bible (Actions speak louder than words...they cannot see your heart, only God can, they can see your actions)
it is easier to have just religion than a relationship, with relationships come pain and suffering and trials..
When you say yes to God, you say yes to the lifestyle changes He requires of you, you are saying that yes i am worthy of this invitation.
God humbled Himself for us...Christ His only son died on a cross for us and for our sins
I must do for others what was done for me through Christ
We need to be gentle, patient, and preserve our relationships.
When things become unbearable, you must remove the anger from the person and remember how patient God has been with you...you must show that same patience and perseverance...
DO NOT bail out on relationships and DO NOT give up because of a lack of progress
When we lose sight of the invitation, that is when we fail in our earthly relationships and in the times when it is hard to see that is when God measures our real and true understanding of Christ.
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I needed to hear some of these things again. Right now me and a few friends are struggling with patience in a certain relationship we have with a few people. This taught me that I need to be patient, I need to remain calm and try to preserve the relationship i have with the person. It also reminded me of how important treating our relationship with God the same as the one we have with our neighbor. God wants to know us..He wants us to cry out to Him ad He wants to rejoice with us and He wants to cry with us. He just wants to be our daddy like Rob said it a few weeks ago.
100 random things about me
1. What is the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
strawberry margarita
2. Do you follow college football?
well right now just ND, but soon ill be following Purdue as well
3. How many miles does your car have on it?
A lot
4. Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Em
5. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
hhmm in a pool...i almost want to say valentines day last year b/c i dont think i actually swam in a pool this summer at all....just the beach and ocean...wow
6. Are you happy?
yes i am
7. Where's the last place you went shopping?
Target
8. How do you feel about your hair?
i am loving my hair lately...but im ready to change it...i just need to wait a few more weeks
9....
10. Last thing you ate?
Special K
11. Do you wish you were someplace else right now?
not really im in my p.j.s still and nice and comfy cozy at home
12. Least favorite ex-boyfriend/girlfriend?
rotflmao....like Jeanna said, lets NOT go there
13. Do you have any expensive jewelry?
hhmmm probably and i just dont realize it
14. AIM or MSN?
AIM
15. What classes are you taking?
the lesson in life
16. How many hours on average do you work a week:
hehe im afraid to answer this question...right now 0
17. What is your favorite brand of makeup?:
this new stuff i just bought i dont rememebr the brand i think its cover girl i know the kind is true blend...i LOVE it
18. Favorite NFL team?
oh gosh...i guess for now the bears...i really dont have just one favorite though...
19. Do you watch the Olympics?
yes i do, my favorite is track/field...im a dork i know
20. Last bar you went to?
No clue
21. Who was the last person to call you?
Nate
22. What's your sign?
Leo
23. Do you have a favorite number?
13 and 71
24. Last time you did volunteer work or made any donations?
volunteer work, i helped stuff potatoes into bags
25. What do you spend the majority of your money on?
right now christmas gifts and paying off the rest of my bills
26. Where does most of your family live?
here in south bend
27. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
2 younger sisters
28. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
yes, in ways
29. Ever been called a bitch?
of course
30. Got any guilty pleasures?
chocolate cake shake
31. Do you drink beer?
the only beer i will drink if i have no other option is a corona w/o the lime
32. Have you ever experienced love?
yes everyday
33. Did you ever collect Beanie Babies?
sorta
34. Ever ordered anything online?
yes i have
35. Myspace or Facebook?
both
36. Do you have T-Mobile?
Nope
37. What was your favorite subject?
being a t.a. lol
38. What are you doing tonight?
i am going to the center for the homeless with MERGE to do some work...woohoo!!!
39. Do you usually fall for the "bad boys"?
i dont need to worry about that i have a wonderful boyfriend
40. Were you an outcast in high school?
nope
41. Last time you saw your parents?
my mom about 10 minutes ago and my dad last night
42. Do you have any talents?
yeah what they are im not sure...
43. Ever been in a wedding?
Two a very long time ago
44. Do you have any children?
nope but i am sure they are in my future
45. Last movie you watched?
R.V.
46. Are you missing anyone at the moment?
yes i am very very much so
47. Did you take a nap today?
no i may here in a little bit
48. What was your high school's mascot?
Colonial
49. Ever been on a cruise?
nope but i really really want to someday
50. Favorite vacation spot?
a lot of places...especially if there is a beach involved...and Mickey Mouse
51. How many pets do you have?
just jasper..and hannahs guinea pig
52. Do you have any wealthy friends?
sure
53. Ever meet anyone famous?
yup
54. Favorite actress?
Jennifer ANiston
56. Are you multi-tasking right now?
nope
57. Could you handle being in the military?
haha funny you would ask me that...no
59. Favorite fast food restaurant?
Wendy's
60. Do you have any grandparents still alive?
2 grandma's
61. What is your average cell phone bill?
varies about $55
64. Do you believe in Karma?
Nope
65 Can you speak any other languages?
German
66. Last time you went to the gym or worked out?
saturday i walked 5 miles
67. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
HAHAHA rotflmao i have no clue way more than enough, if i have to guess maybe 100...that includes flip flops though
68. Do you have a photo hosting site that you use?
Occasionally
69. Last place you drove your car:
to Lo's
70. What is your college mascot?
n/a
71. Ever been to Las Vegas?
Nope, but id like to go see what all the hype is someday
72. Nicest Hotel you ever stayed in?
the hotel the airline put me in at minnesota this past summer, holy crap it was nice i was afraid to mess up the sheets
74. How much money did you make today?
$0 and it feels GREAT
75. What do you think is your best feature?
I hear i have a great smile and unique laugh
76. Have you ever been gambling?
um no dont think so
77. How old are your parents?
late 40's
78. When is the last time you updated your blog?
last week i think...oops im slacking
79. Do you have your wisdom teeth?
haha i have 1...yes random...long story but that is an experience i hope to one day forget
80. Best chapstick?
the chapstick brand
81. Have you been to New York City?
Nope, but possibly next year with nate
82. Favorite sit down restaurant?
TGI Friday's or Olive Garden, or Hacienda
83. Ever been to Disney?
hehe yes when i was 8, an i get to go again in February hehe!!!
84. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
Tigger
85. Last thing you cooked?
Tacos last week
86. How was the weather today?
snow and very cold
87. Do you e-mail?
Yup
88. Last letter/piece of mail you received besides junk or a bill?
probably something from nate
89. Favorite store?
Target or V.S. or Ikea
90. Handbags, Shoes, or Sunglasses?
Shoes hands down no questions asked
91. Last voicemail you received?
hhmm....not sure
92. Do you drunk dial?
nope
93. Stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
haha flushed it, twice
94. What is the best city in the state that you have lived in?
Glendale Heights, IL
95. Favorite band?
Nickelback, Lifehouse
96. Last time you were sick?
a few weeks ago
97. Are you bored right now?
Not really im very relaxed which is very good
98. Last show you attended?
...
99. Do you watch reality tv?
not really
100. What are your plans for tomorrow?
work on nates blanket, watch the program, gilmore girls is on yay!, um who knows what else will come along
strawberry margarita
2. Do you follow college football?
well right now just ND, but soon ill be following Purdue as well
3. How many miles does your car have on it?
A lot
4. Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Em
5. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
hhmm in a pool...i almost want to say valentines day last year b/c i dont think i actually swam in a pool this summer at all....just the beach and ocean...wow
6. Are you happy?
yes i am
7. Where's the last place you went shopping?
Target
8. How do you feel about your hair?
i am loving my hair lately...but im ready to change it...i just need to wait a few more weeks
9....
10. Last thing you ate?
Special K
11. Do you wish you were someplace else right now?
not really im in my p.j.s still and nice and comfy cozy at home
12. Least favorite ex-boyfriend/girlfriend?
rotflmao....like Jeanna said, lets NOT go there
13. Do you have any expensive jewelry?
hhmmm probably and i just dont realize it
14. AIM or MSN?
AIM
15. What classes are you taking?
the lesson in life
16. How many hours on average do you work a week:
hehe im afraid to answer this question...right now 0
17. What is your favorite brand of makeup?:
this new stuff i just bought i dont rememebr the brand i think its cover girl i know the kind is true blend...i LOVE it
18. Favorite NFL team?
oh gosh...i guess for now the bears...i really dont have just one favorite though...
19. Do you watch the Olympics?
yes i do, my favorite is track/field...im a dork i know
20. Last bar you went to?
No clue
21. Who was the last person to call you?
Nate
22. What's your sign?
Leo
23. Do you have a favorite number?
13 and 71
24. Last time you did volunteer work or made any donations?
volunteer work, i helped stuff potatoes into bags
25. What do you spend the majority of your money on?
right now christmas gifts and paying off the rest of my bills
26. Where does most of your family live?
here in south bend
27. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
2 younger sisters
28. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
yes, in ways
29. Ever been called a bitch?
of course
30. Got any guilty pleasures?
chocolate cake shake
31. Do you drink beer?
the only beer i will drink if i have no other option is a corona w/o the lime
32. Have you ever experienced love?
yes everyday
33. Did you ever collect Beanie Babies?
sorta
34. Ever ordered anything online?
yes i have
35. Myspace or Facebook?
both
36. Do you have T-Mobile?
Nope
37. What was your favorite subject?
being a t.a. lol
38. What are you doing tonight?
i am going to the center for the homeless with MERGE to do some work...woohoo!!!
39. Do you usually fall for the "bad boys"?
i dont need to worry about that i have a wonderful boyfriend
40. Were you an outcast in high school?
nope
41. Last time you saw your parents?
my mom about 10 minutes ago and my dad last night
42. Do you have any talents?
yeah what they are im not sure...
43. Ever been in a wedding?
Two a very long time ago
44. Do you have any children?
nope but i am sure they are in my future
45. Last movie you watched?
R.V.
46. Are you missing anyone at the moment?
yes i am very very much so
47. Did you take a nap today?
no i may here in a little bit
48. What was your high school's mascot?
Colonial
49. Ever been on a cruise?
nope but i really really want to someday
50. Favorite vacation spot?
a lot of places...especially if there is a beach involved...and Mickey Mouse
51. How many pets do you have?
just jasper..and hannahs guinea pig
52. Do you have any wealthy friends?
sure
53. Ever meet anyone famous?
yup
54. Favorite actress?
Jennifer ANiston
56. Are you multi-tasking right now?
nope
57. Could you handle being in the military?
haha funny you would ask me that...no
59. Favorite fast food restaurant?
Wendy's
60. Do you have any grandparents still alive?
2 grandma's
61. What is your average cell phone bill?
varies about $55
64. Do you believe in Karma?
Nope
65 Can you speak any other languages?
German
66. Last time you went to the gym or worked out?
saturday i walked 5 miles
67. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
HAHAHA rotflmao i have no clue way more than enough, if i have to guess maybe 100...that includes flip flops though
68. Do you have a photo hosting site that you use?
Occasionally
69. Last place you drove your car:
to Lo's
70. What is your college mascot?
n/a
71. Ever been to Las Vegas?
Nope, but id like to go see what all the hype is someday
72. Nicest Hotel you ever stayed in?
the hotel the airline put me in at minnesota this past summer, holy crap it was nice i was afraid to mess up the sheets
74. How much money did you make today?
$0 and it feels GREAT
75. What do you think is your best feature?
I hear i have a great smile and unique laugh
76. Have you ever been gambling?
um no dont think so
77. How old are your parents?
late 40's
78. When is the last time you updated your blog?
last week i think...oops im slacking
79. Do you have your wisdom teeth?
haha i have 1...yes random...long story but that is an experience i hope to one day forget
80. Best chapstick?
the chapstick brand
81. Have you been to New York City?
Nope, but possibly next year with nate
82. Favorite sit down restaurant?
TGI Friday's or Olive Garden, or Hacienda
83. Ever been to Disney?
hehe yes when i was 8, an i get to go again in February hehe!!!
84. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
Tigger
85. Last thing you cooked?
Tacos last week
86. How was the weather today?
snow and very cold
87. Do you e-mail?
Yup
88. Last letter/piece of mail you received besides junk or a bill?
probably something from nate
89. Favorite store?
Target or V.S. or Ikea
90. Handbags, Shoes, or Sunglasses?
Shoes hands down no questions asked
91. Last voicemail you received?
hhmm....not sure
92. Do you drunk dial?
nope
93. Stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
haha flushed it, twice
94. What is the best city in the state that you have lived in?
Glendale Heights, IL
95. Favorite band?
Nickelback, Lifehouse
96. Last time you were sick?
a few weeks ago
97. Are you bored right now?
Not really im very relaxed which is very good
98. Last show you attended?
...
99. Do you watch reality tv?
not really
100. What are your plans for tomorrow?
work on nates blanket, watch the program, gilmore girls is on yay!, um who knows what else will come along
Friday, December 01, 2006
December
Wow...it's December. I can't believe another year has come and almost gone. This year has had many high points and many low, and still has a few high points awaiting to come. December is a big month. 1st Christmas. I can't believe its only 23 days until santa comes...hehe...and 24 until we celebrate Christ's birth. Christmas has always been special for me. Its when a lot of people put other people 1st...and thats amazing...and inspiring. 2ndly its my sister Steph's birthday. tomorrow she will turn 20...crazy stuff. i remember when she was like 1 and i was pulling her out from under the Christmas Tree...good times good times...3rdly the food drop at GCC. December 9th it will be my 1st experience with the food drop and i am so so pumped. its going to be a great day spent with friends and spreading a little ray of hope to many families in the area. 4thly Nate leaves iraq the 22nd and will be stateside hopefully by Christmas so he will get to see his family..and i should get to see him by new years. 5thly..new years eve at lo's...last year it was a BLAST so this year should prove to be just as fun if not a lot more fun...yay! so i have to say im quite thrilled its december...oo and have i mentioned...i dont have to work..so that makes it even better..no 45 minute commute to work icky!!
1st days off
so the 1st 2 days off have been uneventful...yesterday went to lunch with my mom and aunt then had new community...which was AWESOME...Dr B hit yet another homerun...good stuff...today so far all i have accomplished was running out to get gas when it started to snow b/c I 1. hate getting gas when it snows and 2. I really dont go out much in the snow..and living where we do you jus tnever know how long it will last...but i prefer to let my car sit on a full tank rather than a quarter tank...and now im waiting for nate to call and to go to the store with my mom...funfun.
something Dr B said last night was we cant worry, its wasted energy..thats an attitude ive had for quite some time. worrying wont change anything or make anything easier. if anything it will make it harder. im not perfect at not worrying, i have my moments...but i have no worries about my decision to not work for awhile. it seems everyone else is more concerned than i am. i'll be OK, i appreciate the concern, it shows you care...and it means so so much to me..but spend your energy doing something a little more constructive.
i am so excited to see where this month leads me. its December, it is gonig to be 1 awesome month, Stephs bday, Food Drop, MERGE, Christmas, nate comes home, some other friends come home, new years, a lot of awesome times await this month and i am going to embrace them with open arms.
something Dr B said last night was we cant worry, its wasted energy..thats an attitude ive had for quite some time. worrying wont change anything or make anything easier. if anything it will make it harder. im not perfect at not worrying, i have my moments...but i have no worries about my decision to not work for awhile. it seems everyone else is more concerned than i am. i'll be OK, i appreciate the concern, it shows you care...and it means so so much to me..but spend your energy doing something a little more constructive.
i am so excited to see where this month leads me. its December, it is gonig to be 1 awesome month, Stephs bday, Food Drop, MERGE, Christmas, nate comes home, some other friends come home, new years, a lot of awesome times await this month and i am going to embrace them with open arms.
say thanks...
if you go to this link...you can make a card to be sent to a soldier serving our country. Xerox will print it off adn mail it...it is free and only takes a second...so make someone smile :-)
http://www.letssaythanks.com/Home1024.html
http://www.letssaythanks.com/Home1024.html
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
random
so this is a random post...im a random person what can i say..but here are some thoughts i am having today...
i will not miss hearing "is your fast hosed up?"
i will not miss seeing the network go down...
i will miss most of the people i worked with...they make me laugh
i will miss working on computer issues daily...wow did i really think that...
i am looking forward to not having to set my alarm
i am looking forward to volunteering at the homeless center
im looking forward to spending more time with God
im looking forward to long walks
im actually NOT stressing about money..i have all i need...and if i do need something nate will get it for me...
friday its december and the high today is 66?!
tomorrow the high is like 35...big change from 66...im gonna freeze
im excited about lunch tomorrow with my aunt and mother
im still getting used to the idea of not having to request time off...
im still trying to actually believe that when we go to florida...we dont have to be back at any certain time...so it could be a long trip...
i wonder when my back will stop hurting...i dont even remember what that feels like...
i wonder what jasper thinks when we go on walks w/o him...poor boy...hes getting old
i wonder what he thinks when we walk in the door and hes right there waiting
i wonder what im going to go get for lunch...
i will not miss hearing "is your fast hosed up?"
i will not miss seeing the network go down...
i will miss most of the people i worked with...they make me laugh
i will miss working on computer issues daily...wow did i really think that...
i am looking forward to not having to set my alarm
i am looking forward to volunteering at the homeless center
im looking forward to spending more time with God
im looking forward to long walks
im actually NOT stressing about money..i have all i need...and if i do need something nate will get it for me...
friday its december and the high today is 66?!
tomorrow the high is like 35...big change from 66...im gonna freeze
im excited about lunch tomorrow with my aunt and mother
im still getting used to the idea of not having to request time off...
im still trying to actually believe that when we go to florida...we dont have to be back at any certain time...so it could be a long trip...
i wonder when my back will stop hurting...i dont even remember what that feels like...
i wonder what jasper thinks when we go on walks w/o him...poor boy...hes getting old
i wonder what he thinks when we walk in the door and hes right there waiting
i wonder what im going to go get for lunch...
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
apparently...i have an accent...
So...Nate has said it and people from Canada and Germany have said it...I have an accent...and apprently I do...i found this on a friends blog and just couldn't resist taking the quiz...do you have an accent?
| What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Inland North You may think you speak "Standard English straight out of the dictionary" but when you step away from the Great Lakes you get asked annoying questions like "Are you from Wisconsin?" or "Are you from Chicago?" Chances are you call carbonated drinks "pop." | |
| The Midland | |
| The Northeast | |
| Philadelphia | |
| The South | |
| The West | |
| Boston | |
| North Central | |
| What American accent do you have? Take More Quizzes | |
u just never know what you will see
so i was at lunch at wendy's in my favorite corner spot where i can watch the cars line up or park in the parking lot and watch the people in the dining area...and a red mustang pulled up...i paid no attention at first...kept picking at my salad...then looked out the window after about 2 minutes...an elderly man was still trying to get out of the car...and his wife was sitting waiting patiently in the driver seat. that was the last thing i expected to see...they get out and shuffle in...it was so adorable...and i dont want to say funny b/c it wasnt funny...but it makes you kinda chuckle...i guess it made my heart smile...you just never know who is behind the wheel of that sportscar behind you in traffic...
stress....
soundtrack...
I am quite afraid to do this...2200+ songs i have no idea what will show up or if i will even know the song..but it looks like fun...so thanks Corey...let the good times roll...
IF LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
1. PUT YOUR IPOD ON SHUFFLE
2. PRESS PLAY
3. DON'T CHEAT
4. EACH QUESTION, PUSH BUTTON
5. NEXT QUESTION, PUSH FORWARD
6. SERIOUSLY, DON'T CHEAT
Opening Credits: Grace of My Life- Brian Littrell
Waking Up: Hunger for the Great Light- Dave Matthews Band
First Day Of School: Go On and Cry- Diana Degarmo
Falling In Love: Stay- Jeremy Camp
Fight Song: Something's Gotta Give- Leeann Rimes
Breaking Up: Incomplete- Backstreet Boys
Prom: White Ordinary Life- Mark Harris
Graduation: What If- Nicole Nordeman
Life's Ok: Saved By Grace- Shane & Shane
First Day On The Job: Intro (I've Had Enough)- David Crowder Band
Breakdown: Soul Man- Sam and Dave
Driving: Savin Me- Nickelback
Flashback: King- Audio Adrenaline
Getting Back Together: Bus Stop- The Hollies
Birth Of A Child: Mirrors- Mainstay
Wedding: Finding Out- Stellar Kart
Chase Scene: He Will Carry Me- Mark Schultz
Final Battle: Independance Day- Martina McBride
Death Scene: Gloria-Shadows of Knight
Funeral Song: Do They See Jesus in Me- Joy Williams
End Credits: Dear Lord- Sonic Flood
Sequel Trailer: Living in Fast-Forward- Kenny Chesney
*that was fun...some make perfect sense and some songs I am wondering why they are on my iPod...im going to have to meet with my iPod manager and see what is up lol...hope you enjoyed it*
IF LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
1. PUT YOUR IPOD ON SHUFFLE
2. PRESS PLAY
3. DON'T CHEAT
4. EACH QUESTION, PUSH BUTTON
5. NEXT QUESTION, PUSH FORWARD
6. SERIOUSLY, DON'T CHEAT
Opening Credits: Grace of My Life- Brian Littrell
Waking Up: Hunger for the Great Light- Dave Matthews Band
First Day Of School: Go On and Cry- Diana Degarmo
Falling In Love: Stay- Jeremy Camp
Fight Song: Something's Gotta Give- Leeann Rimes
Breaking Up: Incomplete- Backstreet Boys
Prom: White Ordinary Life- Mark Harris
Graduation: What If- Nicole Nordeman
Life's Ok: Saved By Grace- Shane & Shane
First Day On The Job: Intro (I've Had Enough)- David Crowder Band
Breakdown: Soul Man- Sam and Dave
Driving: Savin Me- Nickelback
Flashback: King- Audio Adrenaline
Getting Back Together: Bus Stop- The Hollies
Birth Of A Child: Mirrors- Mainstay
Wedding: Finding Out- Stellar Kart
Chase Scene: He Will Carry Me- Mark Schultz
Final Battle: Independance Day- Martina McBride
Death Scene: Gloria-Shadows of Knight
Funeral Song: Do They See Jesus in Me- Joy Williams
End Credits: Dear Lord- Sonic Flood
Sequel Trailer: Living in Fast-Forward- Kenny Chesney
*that was fun...some make perfect sense and some songs I am wondering why they are on my iPod...im going to have to meet with my iPod manager and see what is up lol...hope you enjoyed it*
more than this...
so...lately...1 thought that runs through my mind is "there has to be more than this..." this will pop into my head at random times, mostly while i am at work. but it does hopin there at other times too. so i am trying to figure out what "more" is. i think my time off will allow me to answer that question. i was listening to a podcast today from willow (im not addicted to podcasts, and now i have time to be addicted to them...hehe) anyways so i was listenting to this podcast and something that the speaker said was "your true passion is found where you are happiest..." now anyone can say well im happiest on the couch so thats my passion..but thats selfish, i was having a conversation with a friend at church a few weeks ago about my plans and i explained how empty and unfulfilled i felt at my job and how i wanted to work purely for God for a change....money is nice it buys us nice things...BUT when we work out of love and compassion for God...He fills us up with this undescribable feeling and that is all we need to live off of. and that is something i haven't felt in full force since high school when i was going on missions trips and working more with the homeless in south bend. there is just something awesome that happens there...lately while working at 2nd saturday and then helping stuff potatoes into bags..i started to feel that fulfillment again and i long to feel it more..i saw this again at my aunts funeral last wednesday. she never had much. but my aunt glowed with Christ's love and she never let what she did not have hinder her, rather used the love and the life God has blessed her with and touched numerous lives. She literally died with nothing...just a few items of clothing...a purse...and it really made me think...she had discovered something and had dug into that...none of our earthly possessions go to heaven with us, when we die...all that we have materialistically in a sense vanishes...people forget what we had, people will remember how you treated them...and again the stories i heard...my aunt nailed it on the head...all she needed she had in Christ...and she shared that...i want to be more like her...and i have so much...after her funeral i went into my room and just stared at my closet...i have SO MANY material things...my job has provided these things over the years...but they are all things i don't need...well i need clothes but i don't need the same shirt in 5 colors...or the same pair of flip flops in every color made...but thats where my energy i spent at work got poured into...and i dont want that anymore..i want something more...by having this time...im going to be able to focus more on God...more on God's work...more on the direction i am led to...there just has to be more than this...
Monday, November 27, 2006
its been awhile
I haven't blogged for a few days now...I haven't been on the computer much...outside of work. That'll be changing here in the next few days though hopefully I will be able to keep up on blogging. All in all i had a good weekend. My back is almost better and I got a lot done. I even went on a walk outside.I am hoping to get a quick one in tonight as well before it gets dark. we'll see. Not a whole lot has happened that I feel needs to be said on here...I got to see some friends briefly from out of town...hopefully next time i can spend more time with them...but em needed me so i was with her. i have to say the highlight though was getting to spend Friday and Saturday nights both with em...we havent spent much time together lately and it was good to reconnect (even if it was b/c boys are stupid...sometimes) and hang out. her and i just connect on this level it's like shes my big sister i always wanted. and for once...we will be on the same "boyfriend schedule" as her mom puts it so we can double..one thing we have never done together and are both so excited for.
i guess another milestone that occured this weekend was nate getting settled into baghdad...and being done with missions for the remainder of his tour. that is a huge relief. so we have less than a month to go until he is stateside so long as everything stays on track...but getting to talk to him twice this past weekend and twice today has been good. Things are feeling "normal" again for us which is refreshing after the past month.
today i have spent a lot of time shopping for a new phone...i can upgrade again in december so im looking around at what i want/need. im 99% sure i will be getting a wireless headset...those are just really cool..and with all the traveling nate and i will be doing itll come in handy. so far i havent made any solid decisions, there are just way too many phones to choose from.
i really dont know what else i have to babble on and on about...so i guess for now i will close
i guess another milestone that occured this weekend was nate getting settled into baghdad...and being done with missions for the remainder of his tour. that is a huge relief. so we have less than a month to go until he is stateside so long as everything stays on track...but getting to talk to him twice this past weekend and twice today has been good. Things are feeling "normal" again for us which is refreshing after the past month.
today i have spent a lot of time shopping for a new phone...i can upgrade again in december so im looking around at what i want/need. im 99% sure i will be getting a wireless headset...those are just really cool..and with all the traveling nate and i will be doing itll come in handy. so far i havent made any solid decisions, there are just way too many phones to choose from.
i really dont know what else i have to babble on and on about...so i guess for now i will close
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Thanksgiving...
Since more than likely I will not be around a computer all weekend long due to my back...I will post this now...things in my life I am thankful for...have a great thanksgiving everyone!!
my relationship with God
my family
my GCC hotties
my GCC friends
GCC
the job i have managed to have for over 3 years...and for the ability to trust in God and take some time off to get back on track with Him
my many talents I have been blessed with
Nate
Nate's family
Jasper
my wonderful boss and co workers
the house i have to live in, the food i have to eat
football
the many opportunites i have had to travel over the years, including this past summer to cali and coming up in February Disney World
even though they suck the times I have had to hash things out with God...they have helped me to grow
my car
the opportunitues i have ahead of me to continue to grow as a person and with nate
the other "mom and dad" in my life
ok there are many more...but im going to call it a day and go rest my back for an hour before my aunta funeral...have a great Thanksgiving!
my relationship with God
my family
my GCC hotties
my GCC friends
GCC
the job i have managed to have for over 3 years...and for the ability to trust in God and take some time off to get back on track with Him
my many talents I have been blessed with
Nate
Nate's family
Jasper
my wonderful boss and co workers
the house i have to live in, the food i have to eat
football
the many opportunites i have had to travel over the years, including this past summer to cali and coming up in February Disney World
even though they suck the times I have had to hash things out with God...they have helped me to grow
my car
the opportunitues i have ahead of me to continue to grow as a person and with nate
the other "mom and dad" in my life
ok there are many more...but im going to call it a day and go rest my back for an hour before my aunta funeral...have a great Thanksgiving!
verse of the day...
“Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.”- Colossians 3:15
Good stuff right here...something I needed to be reminded of and something i need to chew on. Right now I have been struggling with a certain someone and it seems that no matter how hard i try i cant let love rule in my heart..i keep getting stomped on and walked all over...but i should not let the emotions that come with that take over...i need to love unconditionally and let God handle the conflict in His time, not mine. I need to not judge. It is so hard when you have things thrown back at you to just sit back and "turn the other cheek", just to get it slapped...so hard...This has been a struggle in my life for a long time. For now I am gonig to work on letting God in and letting love rule in my heart...baby steps...i need to say i love you to this person a lot more...like in snow patrols song "those 3 words, are used too much, or not enough..." in this case, not enough....
Good stuff right here...something I needed to be reminded of and something i need to chew on. Right now I have been struggling with a certain someone and it seems that no matter how hard i try i cant let love rule in my heart..i keep getting stomped on and walked all over...but i should not let the emotions that come with that take over...i need to love unconditionally and let God handle the conflict in His time, not mine. I need to not judge. It is so hard when you have things thrown back at you to just sit back and "turn the other cheek", just to get it slapped...so hard...This has been a struggle in my life for a long time. For now I am gonig to work on letting God in and letting love rule in my heart...baby steps...i need to say i love you to this person a lot more...like in snow patrols song "those 3 words, are used too much, or not enough..." in this case, not enough....
random updates on various areas of my life
nate will be home in appx 31 days
i will get to see nate in appx 35-36 days (of course subject to changing)
my back still hurts...a lot...
my aunt's funeral is today at 1:00
this thanksgiving we are going to my parents church to eat there...
i cannot remember the last time i didnt go shopping the day after thanksgiving, but there is no way i will be heading out im in too much pain
im bored with my hair already...so im trying to think of what i can do next, but i must wait until its closer to nate arriving
my iPod now has over 2200 songs or so...i think i listen to maybe 10% of them lol...need to do the shuffle a little more often
i am almost finished with Jesus Freaks...I highly suggest reading this book, it is very good...it ha me thinking a lot about my faith
i am thinking that until nate comes home i am going to do some volunteer work somewhere just not sure where yet...i have a few ideas
k thats all i can think of....did i mention my back still hurts A LOT?
i will get to see nate in appx 35-36 days (of course subject to changing)
my back still hurts...a lot...
my aunt's funeral is today at 1:00
this thanksgiving we are going to my parents church to eat there...
i cannot remember the last time i didnt go shopping the day after thanksgiving, but there is no way i will be heading out im in too much pain
im bored with my hair already...so im trying to think of what i can do next, but i must wait until its closer to nate arriving
my iPod now has over 2200 songs or so...i think i listen to maybe 10% of them lol...need to do the shuffle a little more often
i am almost finished with Jesus Freaks...I highly suggest reading this book, it is very good...it ha me thinking a lot about my faith
i am thinking that until nate comes home i am going to do some volunteer work somewhere just not sure where yet...i have a few ideas
k thats all i can think of....did i mention my back still hurts A LOT?
Monday, November 20, 2006
OUCH!!!!!
so Sunday I woke up with this extremely intense pain in my lower back...I can say I have never experienced pain quite like this before and can say that this is the worst pain, if not worse than when I injured my knees in middle/high school. NOTHING helped, heating pads, aleve, tylenol, nothing...so today off to the doctor i went..thinking maybe he'd have some genius answer to all my problems and flick his magic wand and make it all go away...haha i wish it were so easy. they ran a few tests and he would poke me and ask if it hurt (just in case it momentarily stopped hurting...) and decided i have a low grade infection (i was running a slight fever as well...weird but OK) and gave me 2 prescriptions which i hope are miracle drugs b/c they were expensive...after my appointment i ran to walmart dropped off my prescriptions and got some more of the heating wraps i had bought yesterday but left at home and i highly recommend them, they didnt take my pain away but they stay warm for the full 8 hours they say they will and stay in place fairly well...then it was back to work to suffer through 3 more hours and then off to home and the couch to let my medications take my pain slowly away...so i can hope...time to go home so i will ttyl :)
Friday, November 17, 2006
1. Height? 5'3
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? heck no
3. Do you own a gun? nope and i never will
4. How do you take your tea? i dont like tea
5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"? not really...they always love me...and some stalk me way after the relationship is over...
6. What do you think of hot dogs? Only good grilled
7. What's your favorite Christmas song? Drummer Boy
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Milk or water
9. Can you do push ups? sure can
10. Is your bathroom clean? no i have 2 sisters who dont pick up after themselves
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? sandal necklace from parents
12. Do you like painkillers? not really...it takes a lot of pain for me to take them
13. What is the best concert you've been to? TobyMac
14. Do you have A.D.D.? i have been officially diagnosed...but ask anyone i know well...i am
15. Does anyone in your immediate family have a history of psychosis? uh no
16. Middle Name? Elizabeth
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?1. Only less than 1 day until nate can call me more often. 2. i dont want to go get my car worked on tonight3. can't wait for new years...everyone is going to be here!
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought:1. ribbon magnet for my car 2. nate's christmas gift 3. mcdonalds on wednesday
19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:1. Water 2. Milk 3. starbucks
20. Do you think you're attractive? it depends on when in the month u ask me
21. Have you ever lied? I think everyone has...2
2. Current worry? do i need to tell you...ok i will...iraq
23. Current hate? war
24. Favorite place to be? somewhere warm and tropical or i can handle with the people i love
25. Least favorite place to be? right now...work
26. Where would you like to go? haha right now...again must i say i think u know
27. Do you own slippers? Sure do!
28. What shirt are you wearing? my pink iraq one
29. Do you burn or tan? usually tan but sometimes Both
30. Favorite color(s)? pink and teal
31. Would you be a pirate? No but Johnny Depp sure is hot as one haha yes jeanna i must agree remind u to show u my ipod...
32. What is or are your guiltiest pleasure(s)? chocolate cake shake
33. What songs do you sing in the shower?me..sing in the shower...never haha
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? bed bugs
35. What's in your pockets right now? ipod
36. Last thing that made you laugh? really laugh hard hannah on wednesday night
37. Last thing that made you cry? my mom and sister
38. Worst injury you've ever had? knee injury....let me warn u..when u hear something pop...dont keep playing...stop...
39. How many tv's do you have in your house?4 or 5
40. What was your first pet's name? gosh..goldie...i think
41. Who is your loudest friend? Laura or dave
42. Who is your most silent friend? Rich! But when he talks, listen up cuz its gonna either be important or flipping hilarious!
43. Does someone have a crush on you? i think i can safely say my boyfriend does :)
44. Do you wish on shooting stars? ive seen 1 before...and yes i made a wish
45. What is your favorite book? right now its Jesus Freaks
46. Favorite candy? not a big candy eater
47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? Everything by Lifehouse
48. What song do you want played at your funeral? wow...something to be proud of maybe...i dont know though...good question
49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?staring at the ceiling listening to kem (it usually can put me to sleep) but it didnt work...
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? 1 more day...1 more day
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? heck no
3. Do you own a gun? nope and i never will
4. How do you take your tea? i dont like tea
5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"? not really...they always love me...and some stalk me way after the relationship is over...
6. What do you think of hot dogs? Only good grilled
7. What's your favorite Christmas song? Drummer Boy
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Milk or water
9. Can you do push ups? sure can
10. Is your bathroom clean? no i have 2 sisters who dont pick up after themselves
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? sandal necklace from parents
12. Do you like painkillers? not really...it takes a lot of pain for me to take them
13. What is the best concert you've been to? TobyMac
14. Do you have A.D.D.? i have been officially diagnosed...but ask anyone i know well...i am
15. Does anyone in your immediate family have a history of psychosis? uh no
16. Middle Name? Elizabeth
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?1. Only less than 1 day until nate can call me more often. 2. i dont want to go get my car worked on tonight3. can't wait for new years...everyone is going to be here!
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought:1. ribbon magnet for my car 2. nate's christmas gift 3. mcdonalds on wednesday
19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:1. Water 2. Milk 3. starbucks
20. Do you think you're attractive? it depends on when in the month u ask me
21. Have you ever lied? I think everyone has...2
2. Current worry? do i need to tell you...ok i will...iraq
23. Current hate? war
24. Favorite place to be? somewhere warm and tropical or i can handle with the people i love
25. Least favorite place to be? right now...work
26. Where would you like to go? haha right now...again must i say i think u know
27. Do you own slippers? Sure do!
28. What shirt are you wearing? my pink iraq one
29. Do you burn or tan? usually tan but sometimes Both
30. Favorite color(s)? pink and teal
31. Would you be a pirate? No but Johnny Depp sure is hot as one haha yes jeanna i must agree remind u to show u my ipod...
32. What is or are your guiltiest pleasure(s)? chocolate cake shake
33. What songs do you sing in the shower?me..sing in the shower...never haha
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? bed bugs
35. What's in your pockets right now? ipod
36. Last thing that made you laugh? really laugh hard hannah on wednesday night
37. Last thing that made you cry? my mom and sister
38. Worst injury you've ever had? knee injury....let me warn u..when u hear something pop...dont keep playing...stop...
39. How many tv's do you have in your house?4 or 5
40. What was your first pet's name? gosh..goldie...i think
41. Who is your loudest friend? Laura or dave
42. Who is your most silent friend? Rich! But when he talks, listen up cuz its gonna either be important or flipping hilarious!
43. Does someone have a crush on you? i think i can safely say my boyfriend does :)
44. Do you wish on shooting stars? ive seen 1 before...and yes i made a wish
45. What is your favorite book? right now its Jesus Freaks
46. Favorite candy? not a big candy eater
47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? Everything by Lifehouse
48. What song do you want played at your funeral? wow...something to be proud of maybe...i dont know though...good question
49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?staring at the ceiling listening to kem (it usually can put me to sleep) but it didnt work...
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? 1 more day...1 more day
Thursday, November 16, 2006
frustrated
from time to time..i get frustrated...it happens, it is a part of life...but last night...i think i can honestly say i never have been as frustrated as i was in the moment when it all started....being frustrated, feeling helpless, not being able to talk to the 1 person you really want to, not being able to get a hug...from anyone, let alone the 1 person i reanny wanted a hug from...i am not going to name names, most of you will figure it out as you will most likely hear the story from me, others can just guess...it isnt all that important anyways.
for the sake of everyone's sanity that is going to read this ill change names so it makes sense...
lsat night me and anne got into a huge fight...i mean it was bad...i was driving down cleveland (in between portage adn 933) going about 45 and its dark and rainy. i was crying, yelling, listening to my ipod, and just trapped by the argument....marie chimed in and very fast it became 2 vs 1...which was not my intention of the conversation...i just wanted to nail some points down and try to open a line of communication that seems to have been closed for a long time...well yeah instead of doing that somehow i think it managed to get barricaded by HUGE rocks and such. it was bad...so anne later drags mary into this and then she starts to say some very hurtful things at me, things from my past, things i already had come to accept i had been wrong...and already worked on fixing....and finally mary says the 1 thing that just put me over the edge..."i think you are jealous of anne's good relationship" whoah....no...and mary knows this is not the case. i left...i walked very rapidly on the treadmill blasting songs on my ipod...(this is how i best relieve stress) but that didnt work...i was so frustrated...something i had tried to fix somehow broke into even more pieces. needless to say i was in bed at 8:30 listening to nate's and my favorite songs and staring at the ceiling. in her eyes i will never measure up...no matter what i try to do...im never good enough. (and i kept playing tings that happened in my head over and over again) and everything that happens, its my fault. sure i'll take part blame but its just as much annes fault as my own. i woke up feeling a little better...but still extremely frustrated and that is something that wont go away for awhile i figure...things seem to be under construction so hopefully they get better...
for the sake of everyone's sanity that is going to read this ill change names so it makes sense...
lsat night me and anne got into a huge fight...i mean it was bad...i was driving down cleveland (in between portage adn 933) going about 45 and its dark and rainy. i was crying, yelling, listening to my ipod, and just trapped by the argument....marie chimed in and very fast it became 2 vs 1...which was not my intention of the conversation...i just wanted to nail some points down and try to open a line of communication that seems to have been closed for a long time...well yeah instead of doing that somehow i think it managed to get barricaded by HUGE rocks and such. it was bad...so anne later drags mary into this and then she starts to say some very hurtful things at me, things from my past, things i already had come to accept i had been wrong...and already worked on fixing....and finally mary says the 1 thing that just put me over the edge..."i think you are jealous of anne's good relationship" whoah....no...and mary knows this is not the case. i left...i walked very rapidly on the treadmill blasting songs on my ipod...(this is how i best relieve stress) but that didnt work...i was so frustrated...something i had tried to fix somehow broke into even more pieces. needless to say i was in bed at 8:30 listening to nate's and my favorite songs and staring at the ceiling. in her eyes i will never measure up...no matter what i try to do...im never good enough. (and i kept playing tings that happened in my head over and over again) and everything that happens, its my fault. sure i'll take part blame but its just as much annes fault as my own. i woke up feeling a little better...but still extremely frustrated and that is something that wont go away for awhile i figure...things seem to be under construction so hopefully they get better...
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
history
so I am going to take you back...back to the day when it all started with Metropolitan Title Company
July 14, 2003. I received a phone call from Paige Personnel saying that they had a company that wanted me to start the next day. OK no problem, except that I need to get out there....
So I packed my things and took off for Carol Stream Illinois where I was going to move in with an apartment full of boys and Nina..and soon to be Tristan.
July 15, 2003...the journey begins, I trek out to find this place Metropolitan Title Company (I remember thinking what the frick is a title company...i wonder what they do...at least what im doing sounds interesting (imaging specialist)...so I arrive and it was literally not even 5 minutes from our apartment which was sweet! I get there and Henry greets me...he tells me to follow him all the way to the back of the office in the conference room. they had no toher space for me...and let me tell you...i think thats where i lost my sanity. Some guy who was the IT guru was finishing up settiny my PC up with dual monitors...now that was weird at 1st but now i dont know how i am going to live without them. he introduced himself as wes. and for whatever reason for a few weeks he scared me i wouldnt talk to him...and thats where i learned how to solve my own computer problems....anyways back to my 1st day Henry sits down with me and pretty much admits he has no idea how to do what im going to do, its never been done before never been tested by anyone in the office so we were going to learn together. at that exact moment i was like what did i get myself into? well we figured it out and for about 5 months thats all i did, scan papaers into a computer...mind u this scanner is junk, very expensive byt for high volume its junk. i think i remember wes telling me it was a $3000 scanner. anyways after about 5 months i get moved to the front of the office in a corner.
After that move i was upgraded to a much faster scanner and started to work with wes and tony on a beta project...wes and i became very close friends. although we never hung out outside of work we became good friends..id spend hours talking to him in his office about stupid stuff, oh the fun we had...playing with the servers and so on. tony and i became close but i only met him a few times, we spent hours on the phone, i think the longest was 3 hours trying to figure a problem out. anyone that has to deal with troubleshooting computers...3 hours on the phone with someone to doso is painful...so u talk about other things to forget about the stupid computer. wes also taught me a very important lesson..when throwing a computer out a window...DO NOT throw it through thick glass, it has to be the thin type...otherwise the computer wont break through...and no i never did test this theory but its always in the back of my mind when i am thinking about tossing a pc out the window.
I was soon promoted to order entry...which was good...and i also inherited 2 desks b/c i still scanned docs, yeah i had 2 full time tasks...but that only lasted about 2 months then they hired someone to take over scanning.
i then moved to the front of the office by vickie and rebecca. very exciting. BUT i learned to hate this seat i inherited back up receptionist....ick! that is one thing i despise...because of the very reason it sucks up your day...and throws you off of what you were doing...no fun.
so a few months later we are having our roof fixed...and on a certain day about noon or so it starts to look like its going to storm...bad..but the guys assured us that they copvered everything up and it would not leak in...ok no worries...hehe well it started to rain adn i mean like buckets of water raining so hard and it was so windy it was raining almost horizontally...and all of a sudden i hear "im leaking..." my boss had drops of water coming in...then literally like 5 minutes later it started to POUR in her office...ive never moved so fast in my life before...well then it starts drizzling in 2 other examiners offices...meanwhile our v.p. is on the phone with the company doing the roof explaining they were going to need to come down and fix this like now....it was pure chaos....BUT it gets better...our computer room starts to leak...NOT good, i mean literally all the servers for WI and IL are in here...among other things...again NOT GOOD...so imagine 5 pple frantically trying to tarp over them and shut things down that could go down...just pure chaos but it gets even better...someone went back to the conference room where we had about 100 computers stored adn 50 or 60 flat panel monitors stored...yup you guessed it we heard this from the back room "oh my gosh they're all going to be ruined" rain was coming in directly over about 60% of the computers adn monitors....so again this time imagine 12 pple heaving computers up off the floor onto the tables away from the water and covering them with a tarp...seriously it was insane. i will never forget that day ever.
ok well thats enough history for 1 day i think...more to come later :-)
July 14, 2003. I received a phone call from Paige Personnel saying that they had a company that wanted me to start the next day. OK no problem, except that I need to get out there....
So I packed my things and took off for Carol Stream Illinois where I was going to move in with an apartment full of boys and Nina..and soon to be Tristan.
July 15, 2003...the journey begins, I trek out to find this place Metropolitan Title Company (I remember thinking what the frick is a title company...i wonder what they do...at least what im doing sounds interesting (imaging specialist)...so I arrive and it was literally not even 5 minutes from our apartment which was sweet! I get there and Henry greets me...he tells me to follow him all the way to the back of the office in the conference room. they had no toher space for me...and let me tell you...i think thats where i lost my sanity. Some guy who was the IT guru was finishing up settiny my PC up with dual monitors...now that was weird at 1st but now i dont know how i am going to live without them. he introduced himself as wes. and for whatever reason for a few weeks he scared me i wouldnt talk to him...and thats where i learned how to solve my own computer problems....anyways back to my 1st day Henry sits down with me and pretty much admits he has no idea how to do what im going to do, its never been done before never been tested by anyone in the office so we were going to learn together. at that exact moment i was like what did i get myself into? well we figured it out and for about 5 months thats all i did, scan papaers into a computer...mind u this scanner is junk, very expensive byt for high volume its junk. i think i remember wes telling me it was a $3000 scanner. anyways after about 5 months i get moved to the front of the office in a corner.
After that move i was upgraded to a much faster scanner and started to work with wes and tony on a beta project...wes and i became very close friends. although we never hung out outside of work we became good friends..id spend hours talking to him in his office about stupid stuff, oh the fun we had...playing with the servers and so on. tony and i became close but i only met him a few times, we spent hours on the phone, i think the longest was 3 hours trying to figure a problem out. anyone that has to deal with troubleshooting computers...3 hours on the phone with someone to doso is painful...so u talk about other things to forget about the stupid computer. wes also taught me a very important lesson..when throwing a computer out a window...DO NOT throw it through thick glass, it has to be the thin type...otherwise the computer wont break through...and no i never did test this theory but its always in the back of my mind when i am thinking about tossing a pc out the window.
I was soon promoted to order entry...which was good...and i also inherited 2 desks b/c i still scanned docs, yeah i had 2 full time tasks...but that only lasted about 2 months then they hired someone to take over scanning.
i then moved to the front of the office by vickie and rebecca. very exciting. BUT i learned to hate this seat i inherited back up receptionist....ick! that is one thing i despise...because of the very reason it sucks up your day...and throws you off of what you were doing...no fun.
so a few months later we are having our roof fixed...and on a certain day about noon or so it starts to look like its going to storm...bad..but the guys assured us that they copvered everything up and it would not leak in...ok no worries...hehe well it started to rain adn i mean like buckets of water raining so hard and it was so windy it was raining almost horizontally...and all of a sudden i hear "im leaking..." my boss had drops of water coming in...then literally like 5 minutes later it started to POUR in her office...ive never moved so fast in my life before...well then it starts drizzling in 2 other examiners offices...meanwhile our v.p. is on the phone with the company doing the roof explaining they were going to need to come down and fix this like now....it was pure chaos....BUT it gets better...our computer room starts to leak...NOT good, i mean literally all the servers for WI and IL are in here...among other things...again NOT GOOD...so imagine 5 pple frantically trying to tarp over them and shut things down that could go down...just pure chaos but it gets even better...someone went back to the conference room where we had about 100 computers stored adn 50 or 60 flat panel monitors stored...yup you guessed it we heard this from the back room "oh my gosh they're all going to be ruined" rain was coming in directly over about 60% of the computers adn monitors....so again this time imagine 12 pple heaving computers up off the floor onto the tables away from the water and covering them with a tarp...seriously it was insane. i will never forget that day ever.
ok well thats enough history for 1 day i think...more to come later :-)
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Breast Cancer Petition
Go HERE and read about this petition and sign it. I typically don't do this...but this is very important and an issue I hold close to me as I have lost family to Breast Cancer.
Monday, November 13, 2006
randomness...im so bored..oh so bored
1.How old will you be in five years? 27...wowser!
2. Do you think you will be married by then? yes, unless God has another idea
3. How tall are you? 5'3
4. What do you look forward to the most in the next 6 weeks?
teehee! nate will be getting home!!!! yeah less than 6 weeks..actually 5 weeks today!
5. What's the last movie you saw? um...i watched POC on my iPod it was cool!
6. Who was the last person you called? Em
7. Who was the last person to call you? Stephen, but I couldn't pick up
8. What was the last text message you received? from tara about wendys
9. Do you prefer to call or text? depends on who adn what the deal is, texting is nice b/c the person doesnt have to stop what they are doing if they dont want to or cant
10. Do you have any pets? yes my lil boy jasper
11. What were you doing at 12am last night? trying to sleep
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? just celebrated 25 years of marriage
13. When is the last time you saw your mom? This morning
14. What color are your eyes? brown
15. What time did you wake up today? 6:09
16. What are you wearing right now? khakis and a pink fleece
17. What's your favorite Christmas song? Little Drummer Boy
18. Where is your favorite place to be? around people who love me
19. Where is your least favorite place to be? aroun dpeople who don't like me...ok j/k somewhere where i feel out of place
20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere? Iraq and I'd bring nate back with me right now
21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? hhmm good question
22. Do you tan or burn? typically i tan, i might burn once but then its smooth sailing the rest of the summer
23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? um...bed bugs
24. What was the last thing that made you laugh? HB and my boss
25. How many TVs do you have? 5
26. How big is your bed? twin size, soon to be king sized hehe
27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer? desktop
28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?haha wouldnt u like to know...
29. What color are your sheets? red adn tan plaid
30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2
31. What is your favorite season? summer
32. What do you like about fall? the colors
33. What do you like about winter? nothing at all..except maybe this winter..i like the fact ill get to spend it with EVERYONE i love
34. What do you like about the summer? BEACH BEACH BEACH and being tan
35. What do you like about spring? the fact that most of the time the snow is gone
36. How many states have you lived in? 3
37. How many cities/towns have you lived in? 5
38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet? bare feet in summer and shoes in winter :-(
39. Are you a social person? for the most part yes, i have my moments though
40. What was the last thing you ate? gordita and it was quite yummy
41. What is your favorite restaurant? TGI Fridays and Hacienda
42. What is your favorite ice cream? anyting with lots of chocolate
43. What is your favorite dessert? oh gosh...again anything with lots of chocolate
44. What is your favorite kind of soup? cream of brocolli
45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich? grape or strawbwrry
(Where's 46???)
47. Do you like coffee? i like the frou frou drinks
48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?10ish
49. What do you drink in the morning? during the week water on the weekends milk
50. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? for now alone
51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? i fall asleep however im comfortable, no particulare way
52. Do you know how to play poker? nope and dont care to learn
53. Do you like to cuddle? YES
54. Have you ever been to Canada? yes a few times i LOVE it
55. Do you have an addictive personality? haha when it comes to clothes and shoes yes i do
56. Do you eat out or at home more often? depends on my schedule
(Where's 57??)
58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? yup a few pple
59. Do you want kids? haha...depends on what children ive been around recently
60. Do you speak any other languages? ich sprechen zie deutsche(German)
61. Have you ever gotten stitches? yup on my head
62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? Nope
63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool? haha either is good for me..just dont talk and go under water in hte ocean..its extremely salty...
64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat? depends on who im sitting next to
65. Do you know how to drive stick? no..i think im too a.d.d. for that
66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on? hehe my b.f. and gifts for friends/family
67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7? nope
68. What is your favorite TV show? i cant narrow it down to 1
69. Can you roll your tongue? Nope
70. Who is the funniest person you know? lo, HB and nate
71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? well i used to sleep with my fav tigger but hes in mosul right now...
72. What is the main ring tone on your phone? you and me by lifehouse
73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little? how little
74. What color are your bedroom walls? white
75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth? yup
76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Open
77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees? do i really need to pick...cuz neither sounds inviting to me at all
78. Do you flirt a lot? heck no i dont
79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? ok 1 i only will eat wendys chickn nuggest to clarify and their bbq sauce
80. What is your favorite food? pasta and mexican
81. Can you change the oil on a car? ronflmao hahahaha...thats a BIG no
82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket? not a speeding ticket, supposedly i was following too close...whatever
83. Have you ever run out of gas? Nope!
84. What is your usual bedtime? lately on week nights about 9:30 or so weekends whenever i crash
(Where's 85?)
86. Do you read the newspaper? no
87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? nope
88. Best comedian? i have a lot of favorites
89. Do you watch soap operas? Nope
90. Do you dance in the car? haha yes yes i do...its great fun!
2. Do you think you will be married by then? yes, unless God has another idea
3. How tall are you? 5'3
4. What do you look forward to the most in the next 6 weeks?
teehee! nate will be getting home!!!! yeah less than 6 weeks..actually 5 weeks today!
5. What's the last movie you saw? um...i watched POC on my iPod it was cool!
6. Who was the last person you called? Em
7. Who was the last person to call you? Stephen, but I couldn't pick up
8. What was the last text message you received? from tara about wendys
9. Do you prefer to call or text? depends on who adn what the deal is, texting is nice b/c the person doesnt have to stop what they are doing if they dont want to or cant
10. Do you have any pets? yes my lil boy jasper
11. What were you doing at 12am last night? trying to sleep
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? just celebrated 25 years of marriage
13. When is the last time you saw your mom? This morning
14. What color are your eyes? brown
15. What time did you wake up today? 6:09
16. What are you wearing right now? khakis and a pink fleece
17. What's your favorite Christmas song? Little Drummer Boy
18. Where is your favorite place to be? around people who love me
19. Where is your least favorite place to be? aroun dpeople who don't like me...ok j/k somewhere where i feel out of place
20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere? Iraq and I'd bring nate back with me right now
21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? hhmm good question
22. Do you tan or burn? typically i tan, i might burn once but then its smooth sailing the rest of the summer
23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? um...bed bugs
24. What was the last thing that made you laugh? HB and my boss
25. How many TVs do you have? 5
26. How big is your bed? twin size, soon to be king sized hehe
27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer? desktop
28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?haha wouldnt u like to know...
29. What color are your sheets? red adn tan plaid
30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2
31. What is your favorite season? summer
32. What do you like about fall? the colors
33. What do you like about winter? nothing at all..except maybe this winter..i like the fact ill get to spend it with EVERYONE i love
34. What do you like about the summer? BEACH BEACH BEACH and being tan
35. What do you like about spring? the fact that most of the time the snow is gone
36. How many states have you lived in? 3
37. How many cities/towns have you lived in? 5
38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet? bare feet in summer and shoes in winter :-(
39. Are you a social person? for the most part yes, i have my moments though
40. What was the last thing you ate? gordita and it was quite yummy
41. What is your favorite restaurant? TGI Fridays and Hacienda
42. What is your favorite ice cream? anyting with lots of chocolate
43. What is your favorite dessert? oh gosh...again anything with lots of chocolate
44. What is your favorite kind of soup? cream of brocolli
45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich? grape or strawbwrry
(Where's 46???)
47. Do you like coffee? i like the frou frou drinks
48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?10ish
49. What do you drink in the morning? during the week water on the weekends milk
50. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? for now alone
51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? i fall asleep however im comfortable, no particulare way
52. Do you know how to play poker? nope and dont care to learn
53. Do you like to cuddle? YES
54. Have you ever been to Canada? yes a few times i LOVE it
55. Do you have an addictive personality? haha when it comes to clothes and shoes yes i do
56. Do you eat out or at home more often? depends on my schedule
(Where's 57??)
58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? yup a few pple
59. Do you want kids? haha...depends on what children ive been around recently
60. Do you speak any other languages? ich sprechen zie deutsche(German)
61. Have you ever gotten stitches? yup on my head
62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? Nope
63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool? haha either is good for me..just dont talk and go under water in hte ocean..its extremely salty...
64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat? depends on who im sitting next to
65. Do you know how to drive stick? no..i think im too a.d.d. for that
66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on? hehe my b.f. and gifts for friends/family
67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7? nope
68. What is your favorite TV show? i cant narrow it down to 1
69. Can you roll your tongue? Nope
70. Who is the funniest person you know? lo, HB and nate
71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? well i used to sleep with my fav tigger but hes in mosul right now...
72. What is the main ring tone on your phone? you and me by lifehouse
73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little? how little
74. What color are your bedroom walls? white
75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth? yup
76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Open
77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees? do i really need to pick...cuz neither sounds inviting to me at all
78. Do you flirt a lot? heck no i dont
79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? ok 1 i only will eat wendys chickn nuggest to clarify and their bbq sauce
80. What is your favorite food? pasta and mexican
81. Can you change the oil on a car? ronflmao hahahaha...thats a BIG no
82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket? not a speeding ticket, supposedly i was following too close...whatever
83. Have you ever run out of gas? Nope!
84. What is your usual bedtime? lately on week nights about 9:30 or so weekends whenever i crash
(Where's 85?)
86. Do you read the newspaper? no
87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? nope
88. Best comedian? i have a lot of favorites
89. Do you watch soap operas? Nope
90. Do you dance in the car? haha yes yes i do...its great fun!
Freedom of a different kind
So today was a BIG day for me...last night i decided i was turning my notice in...i had planned on waiting until December but I just couldn't take it anymore, I dread coming to work, so it is time to get out. Plus this gives me extra time to get things ready for Nate and I can help my family out some. I am quite excited about this. I gave my notice to my boss...and she had tears in her eyes. She was sad to see me go but understands. I've been under so much stress as have most of us here and she expects to see much more of it. She said that they are gonig to want to try to keep me. I told her no amount of money would make me stay. I just was unhappy there. walking out of that office I felt this new sense of freedom. Finally, I can do some things for myself and finally I can live on my timetable not theirs. I am free.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
fun fact
this was on my fun fact calendar today and i thought it would be nice to share it...i didnt know this adn i thought hhmm i wonder who else does not know this...so here we go...put your learning caps on...
That famous hillside Hollywood sign started out in 1923 as Hollywoodland, a kind of billboard for a housing development.
BUT when the sign began to fall aprt from neglect (imagine that) in the 1940s, civic leaders stepped in. They got the bright idea of removing the lasy syllable, fixing up the rest and using it to advertise the movie industry...pretty cool huh?!
well i thought so at least lol...what can i say im a geek for stuff like that
That famous hillside Hollywood sign started out in 1923 as Hollywoodland, a kind of billboard for a housing development.
BUT when the sign began to fall aprt from neglect (imagine that) in the 1940s, civic leaders stepped in. They got the bright idea of removing the lasy syllable, fixing up the rest and using it to advertise the movie industry...pretty cool huh?!
well i thought so at least lol...what can i say im a geek for stuff like that
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
hehe i just had to share this blonde joke... :-)
An Irishman, a Mexican and a Blonde Guy were doing construction work on scaffolding on the 20th floor of a building.
They were eating lunch and the Irishman said, "Corned beef and cabbage! If I get corned beef and cabbage one more time for lunch, I'm going to jump off this building."
The Mexican opened his lunch box and exclaimed, "Burritos again! If I get burritos one more time I'm going to jump off, too."
The blonde opened his lunch and said, " Bologna again! If I geta bologna sandwich one more time, I'm jumping too."
The next day, the Irishman opened his lunch box, saw corned beefand cabbage, and jumped to his death.
The Mexican opened his lunch, saw a burrito, and jumped, too.
The blonde guy opened his lunch, saw the bologna and jumped to his death as well.
At the funeral, the Irishman's wife was weeping. She said, "If I'd known how really tired he was of corned beef and cabbage, I never would have given it to him again!"
The Mexican's wife also wept and said, "I could have given him tacos or enchiladas! I didn't realize he hated burritos so much."
(Oh this is GOOD!!)?
Everyone turned and stared at the blonde's wife.
The blonde'swife said,
"Don't look at me. He makes his own lunch .."
They were eating lunch and the Irishman said, "Corned beef and cabbage! If I get corned beef and cabbage one more time for lunch, I'm going to jump off this building."
The Mexican opened his lunch box and exclaimed, "Burritos again! If I get burritos one more time I'm going to jump off, too."
The blonde opened his lunch and said, " Bologna again! If I geta bologna sandwich one more time, I'm jumping too."
The next day, the Irishman opened his lunch box, saw corned beefand cabbage, and jumped to his death.
The Mexican opened his lunch, saw a burrito, and jumped, too.
The blonde guy opened his lunch, saw the bologna and jumped to his death as well.
At the funeral, the Irishman's wife was weeping. She said, "If I'd known how really tired he was of corned beef and cabbage, I never would have given it to him again!"
The Mexican's wife also wept and said, "I could have given him tacos or enchiladas! I didn't realize he hated burritos so much."
(Oh this is GOOD!!)?
Everyone turned and stared at the blonde's wife.
The blonde'swife said,
"Don't look at me. He makes his own lunch .."
sometimes we make plans...and God laughs
I LOVE this quote...it has to be so true and it makes me chuckle thinking of God's thoughts on some of our plans. I heard it on 7th Heaven, Annie says it in reference to them taking in a few street kids, after almost being empty nesters. it really makes me think and makes me grateful that God is in complete control. God has awesome things in sotre for us far beyond our imagination...and He won't let us settle. I look back at things that had been planned in my life...at 1 point yes i was engaged...ring and all...even i look back on that and laugh, i planned on going to cedar point with nels after boot camp..God must have been rolling on the floor with that 1 b/c not even 2 months later nate books a trip to DISNEY for us...and God must have been laughing his head off while i was with nels...now i think he smiles b/c He brought nate into my life and he is just beyond wonderful in so many ways. i got involoved in youth group in high school but not wanting much to do with it and God sent me to Honduras...i planned to just skate through those years but God challenged me and blessed me with many opportunities. ive tried holding onto things i KNOW i have NO control over and in these situations i think God just quietly laughs...not in a mean way but in a fatherly way...and He is always there when we fall...He always will meet us where we are, if you think about it that is one of the few places He can meet us...if you are on one path you aren't going to find God on another one...if you are headed in 1 direction you won't find God behind you but waiting for you...He meets us where we are, everyone of us. Something I am learning everyday is that it is not easy letting God guide your life it is challenging. and just when things start to coast..God sends a little wake up call...He nudges us. so anyways just think if you have something plans...and it doesn't work out...its OK God is going to bring something much bigger and better along...He will pour His blessings out upon you :-)
Monday, November 06, 2006
3 things...volume 2
Three things that scare me
1. feverish nightmares
2. sometimes the unknown
3. driving in the rain/snow
Three people who make me laugh
1. Lo still cracks me up
2. HB
3. Nate sent me a letter that i got friday...and i must say he had me laughing pretty hard
Three things that I love
1. GOD
2. Family and Friends
3. Nate, sorry boring same as before but all true
Three things that I hate
1. being sick for 5 days (yup im still feeling quite ill
2.Getting out of bed when it is cold (or at all)
3.when i don't make time for my friends/family
Three things I dont understand
1. war
2. why people are so cruel sometimes
3. expectations people put on their friendships
Three things I love in a Girl/Boy (i'll try to switch it up)
1. so i LOVE the fact nate has to send me pics of his new suits
2. his dimples
3. i LOVE how he makes the little things a big deal...like a card i sent him or a random email
Three ways to best describe my personality
1. Random
2. organized
3. go,go,go
Three things I cant do
1. Snowboard ...Im going to learn this season ...YAY!
2. sleep more than 4 hours straight
3. go 1 hour w/o knowing where my cell phone is
1.Wedding Crashers
2.Pirates of the Carribean
3. American Pie
Three goals for your future
1. move out (its coming around the corner woohoo!)
2. make 1 person smile each day
3. coach a sports team for a local organization w/ nate
Three of your dumbest moments (i have actually had 3 new ones since i have done this)
1. while holding my toothbrush and toothpaste in hand, ask hannah what happened to my toothpaste and toothbrush (possibly effects of nyquil"
2. while watching the ND game on saturday my mom asks "whatcha watching" i reply "7th heaven" (again must have been either the effects of my drugs...or too much Tv had fried my brain
3. the doctor asks "are you taking any drugs" I reply quite aggitated "didn't you just ask me that" he says "no, but you did have to fill out any drugs you were taking to help with the symptoms" i say "ooo...wow...i swears you just asked me that though...wow ok then...."
Three people im tagging
1.Tara
2. Stephanie L.
3. Nina
1. feverish nightmares
2. sometimes the unknown
3. driving in the rain/snow
Three people who make me laugh
1. Lo still cracks me up
2. HB
3. Nate sent me a letter that i got friday...and i must say he had me laughing pretty hard
Three things that I love
1. GOD
2. Family and Friends
3. Nate, sorry boring same as before but all true
Three things that I hate
1. being sick for 5 days (yup im still feeling quite ill
2.Getting out of bed when it is cold (or at all)
3.when i don't make time for my friends/family
Three things I dont understand
1. war
2. why people are so cruel sometimes
3. expectations people put on their friendships
Three things I love in a Girl/Boy (i'll try to switch it up)
1. so i LOVE the fact nate has to send me pics of his new suits
2. his dimples
3. i LOVE how he makes the little things a big deal...like a card i sent him or a random email
Three ways to best describe my personality
1. Random
2. organized
3. go,go,go
Three things I cant do
1. Snowboard ...Im going to learn this season ...YAY!
2. sleep more than 4 hours straight
3. go 1 hour w/o knowing where my cell phone is
1.Wedding Crashers
2.Pirates of the Carribean
3. American Pie
Three goals for your future
1. move out (its coming around the corner woohoo!)
2. make 1 person smile each day
3. coach a sports team for a local organization w/ nate
Three of your dumbest moments (i have actually had 3 new ones since i have done this)
1. while holding my toothbrush and toothpaste in hand, ask hannah what happened to my toothpaste and toothbrush (possibly effects of nyquil"
2. while watching the ND game on saturday my mom asks "whatcha watching" i reply "7th heaven" (again must have been either the effects of my drugs...or too much Tv had fried my brain
3. the doctor asks "are you taking any drugs" I reply quite aggitated "didn't you just ask me that" he says "no, but you did have to fill out any drugs you were taking to help with the symptoms" i say "ooo...wow...i swears you just asked me that though...wow ok then...."
Three people im tagging
1.Tara
2. Stephanie L.
3. Nina
Friday, November 03, 2006
yup i did it, im on facebook..not sure how often ill be there...but ive got it..solook me up and leave me a note or however it works :-)
sick...tears...i'm random i know this
so tuesday it all starts i start to get the oh so wonderful feeling of being sick...i made it to bed by 8:30 as if i could somehow stop it from happening...well wednesday i felt awful but brushed it off went to work a dentist appointment and back to work...then my boss told me i felt feverish and sent me home which is where i have been the past 2 and a half days, ive beem having awful sleep and from 3:30 on wednesday until 9:am on thursday i pretty much slept with the exception of getting up to go to the bathroom or get water...and with the help of nyquil. it was much needed rest as life is hectic for me right now.
i wont go into too many details here but ive had another sort of struggle with God this week...ive been holding onto something i needed to let go into His hands but i felt that if i did id lose control, when in reality i had no control over it to begin with...but somehow my little mind thought that by holding on to it i would have some sort of control..its human nature i think, we want to fix everything, at least i know thats my nature...anyways i let go yesterday afternoon in a tearful and very emotional fit, the weird thing was, I could feel God there with me...i could feel Him wrapping me up close to Him and as i looked down at my Bible pages...my tears were not hitting them...they kind of dissovled i guess, it was as if God was catching them and holding them close to His heart. i have to say it was the most awesome moment i have had with God in a long time...never think u are all alone because God is there each step of the way with you not watching over you but walking with you.
and lastly this is why my sister does all the ipod stuff...somehow in the process of adding 1 tv show i deleted all 2000 songs off of my ipod....:-( yes i was quite saddened but i am now in the process of syncing the ipod with my itunes music library so hopefully in a few minutes all will be well again...but for a moment i almost vomited....thats a lot of music to just disappear...i think from now on i will let the HB handle all my music/ipod stuff...its just safer that way.
ok time to go watch my 1st downloaded tv show Law and Order SVU :-)
i wont go into too many details here but ive had another sort of struggle with God this week...ive been holding onto something i needed to let go into His hands but i felt that if i did id lose control, when in reality i had no control over it to begin with...but somehow my little mind thought that by holding on to it i would have some sort of control..its human nature i think, we want to fix everything, at least i know thats my nature...anyways i let go yesterday afternoon in a tearful and very emotional fit, the weird thing was, I could feel God there with me...i could feel Him wrapping me up close to Him and as i looked down at my Bible pages...my tears were not hitting them...they kind of dissovled i guess, it was as if God was catching them and holding them close to His heart. i have to say it was the most awesome moment i have had with God in a long time...never think u are all alone because God is there each step of the way with you not watching over you but walking with you.
and lastly this is why my sister does all the ipod stuff...somehow in the process of adding 1 tv show i deleted all 2000 songs off of my ipod....:-( yes i was quite saddened but i am now in the process of syncing the ipod with my itunes music library so hopefully in a few minutes all will be well again...but for a moment i almost vomited....thats a lot of music to just disappear...i think from now on i will let the HB handle all my music/ipod stuff...its just safer that way.
ok time to go watch my 1st downloaded tv show Law and Order SVU :-)
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
im sick...again :-(
so i NEVER ever get sick adn this is the 2nd time in less than 2 months I am sick again and i think its whatever i had before...i feel like crap!! So it looks like tonight i have a date with some nyquil...fun fun. and to make things even mor efun i had a dentist appt today, which actually went very well...the hygienest told me i had the prettiest teeth ever...i was kinda shocked but ok i'll take it lol. so on that note i highly reccomend the listerine prebrush whitening stuff...it works pretty darn well :-) and no cavaties for me...22 years and not a one, woohoo!! ok thats all i have to try to get focused back on work.
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
halloween survey..yeah im killing time...its almost 5...yay!
| Halloween Survey!!!! yay | |
| Do you like Halloween?: | yes its fun~ |
| Whats ur favorite part about it?: | dressing up or watching all the little kids in their costumes, so cute! |
| Do u dress up for it?: | if im going to a party |
| Do u go trick-or-treating?: | no im too old for that |
| Do you go to any Halloween parties?: | if im invited |
| Have u ever HAD a Halloween Party?: | yes |
| Do u carve ur pumpkins?: | not this year but we have in the past |
| Do u make them scary or cute?: | both |
| What are u being this year?: | this year i was a nurse, but only for nates sake lol hehe |
| What were you last year?: | i dont believe i dressed up last year |
| What was your favorite costume?: | hhmm i have to say i like my nurses costume a lot |
| Do you usually buy ur costume or put it together with stuff u have?: | buy it |
| Whats the most expensive costume u've bought?: | the one for this year |
| Ever won a costume contest?: | nope |
| Bobbed for Apples?: | yup |
| When to a real haunted house?: | i think they mean went to a real haunted house...nope |
| Sat in a cemetary on Halloween night?: | no |
| Been scared by something on Halloween night?: | yes, duh?! |
| Eaten so much Halloween candy u got sick?: | haha no |
| Ate more candy then u passed out to kids?: | haha yes |
| Given the candy you dont like to ur parents?: | yup |
| Gotten fruit on Halloween?: | nope |
| How about a coupon for McDonalds fries?: | yup |
| Gotten a full size candy bar instead of the bite size ones?: | yup |
| Gotten hurt on Halloween?: | hhmm...i dont recall |
| TP'ed on Halloween?: | no |
| Gotten TP'd on Halloween?: | no |
| Waiting last minute to get a costume?: | yup it is cheaper that way |
| Watch a lot of Horror movies during the entire month of October?: | hhmm sometimes |
| Watch the ghost shows that are on around Halloween?: | sure why not |
| Whats ur favorite scary movie?: | oo good one...hhmm....i like the halloween series, my dad got me hooked on those |
| Least favorite?: | not sure, saw maybe b/c its so gory |
| Have u ever been scared by a movie?: | yes |
| Been scared to leave the room after watching a scary movie?: | haha yes signs scared me b/c im totally freaked out by aliens |
| Been arrested on Halloween?: | no |
| Been in trouble with the cops on Halloween?: | no |
| Crossed a black cat on Halloween?: | hhmm...nope |
| Had a scary movie marathon on Halloween?: | yup |
| Is Halloween ur favorite holiday?: | nope |
| Have u ever been a witch for Halloween?: | yup |
| What about a Vampire?: | yup |
| Whats ur favorite Halloween candy?: | hhmm...the reeses ghosts or pumpkins |
| Least favorite?: | hhmm...not sure i have a least favorite... |
| What candy do u usually get the most?: | tootsie rolls |
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Chasing Cars~
So my little sister (big shocker) got me hooked on these guys (Snow Patrol). Their album is awesome...i highly reccomend it and will even let you listen to their stuff on my ipod if you ask me. :-) But this songs lyrics grabbed my attention...so I am sharing them with you.
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
a 4 AM wake up call of a different sort
so typically im thrilled at my 4 am wake up calls b/c its nate calling or "texting" me. (he is in iraq so they are 8 hours ahead of us now.) anyways this morning my mom is making a lot of noise and i hear my doggies at my door and my mom opens my door and lets in the dog and tells me he has to stay b/c the police are coming...now im literally 3/4 asleep so im like...huh?! trying to figure out if its a dream or not so im wide awake but im not leaving my bedroom b/c 1 its cold and 2 if i get up i wont be able to go back to asleep ever so i stayed in bed and after an hour or so i fell asleep again...only to be awoken by jasper at about 5:40 b/c he wanted out of my room...so i made sure it was all good and and my dad said yes and explained we couldnt go near the coputer desk b/c that window had been shattered...im still pretty much asleep so i was like ok whatever and laid back down. when i finally made it downstairs at about 7:30 to head to work i see that yes indeed the window was shattered, id have gotten a picture but i didnt think of it until later. apparently someone thought it was really cool to throw rocks at the window...not sure why and they sure must be determined b/c they had to get through 2 gates in order to do this. so yeah today was a wake up call of a different kind...NOT a fun one.
Monday, October 30, 2006
3 things...
| Three things | |
| Three things that scare me | |
| 1: | dark |
| 2: | being dropped |
| 3: | getting off a roof and onto a ladder |
| Three people who make me laugh | |
| 1: | tara |
| 2: | jeanna |
| 3: | nate |
| Three things I love | |
| 1: | family |
| 2: | friends |
| 3: | nate :-) |
| Three things I hate | |
| 1: | what if game |
| 2: | deception |
| 3: | media |
| Three things I dont understand | |
| 1: | why the media focuses on negative |
| 2: | my hair |
| 3: | time |
| Three things i love in a Girls/Boy | |
| 1: | nates eyes |
| 2: | nates very very nice arms |
| 3: | nates smile |
| three ways to best describe my personality | |
| 1: | outgoing |
| 2: | spontaneous |
| 3: | trusting |
| Three things I cant do | |
| 1: | play the drums |
| 2: | snowboard |
| 3: | run a marathon |
| Three favorite movies | |
| 1: | twister |
| 2: | how to lose a guy in 10 days |
| 3: | the tigger movie of course :-) |
| Three Goals for future | |
| 1: | be a wonderful wife |
| 2: | be a wonderful mother |
| 3: | go back to honduras |
| Three of your dumbest moments | |
| 1: | after getting hurt playing basketball i got back up and continued to play and made it worse |
| 2: | driving down a 1 way street in downtown chicago the WRONG way |
| 3: | setting the alarm off at work, even though i really didnt know we had one Three People I am tagging 1. LO 2. Jeanna 3. Jen
|
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im soooooooooo bored....
| Odd Facts about ME | |
| DO YOU SNORE?: | no |
| LOVER OR A FIGHTER?: | lover |
| WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?: | getting dropped from really high, yet i want to go bungee jumping and sky diving... |
| AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO BUILDER?: | heck yes i was with my pink legos |
| WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY TV"?: | not for me |
| DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?: | haha yes i do |
| WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?: | ok so seriously who isnt a cute baby? |
| HOW IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?: | well im not single... |
| WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?: | black and white |
| DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?: | it depends... |
| HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?: | haha no but i really really want to |
| ANY SECRET TALENTS?: | hhmm...i dont know |
| WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?: | disney :-) |
| HAVE YOU EATEN SUSHI?: | eeewww nope and i never ever will |
| HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?: | hahahahaha no |
| DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?: | yes i give a darn about the ozone lol |
| HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?: | too many |
| CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?: | hhmm...zyxwvutsrqponmlkjihgfedcba yes i can |
| HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?: | yes i have |
| ARE SPEEDO'S HOT?: | hhmm...on nate yes anyone else no! |
| WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?: | i dont like guns |
| IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?: | yes |
| DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?: | my hand writing varies on my moods but yes i do |
| WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?: | nothing at all |
| WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU": | hhmm...well i said I <3> |
| IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE?: | i dont know is he? |
| DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?: | haha ive only been to 1 wedding recently, i didnt cry, my mom did though, which means eventually i will |
| HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?: | scrambled |
| ARE BLONDES DUMB?: | no... |
| WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?: | in a land far far away |
| WHAT TIME IS IT?: | 2:21 |
| DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?: | yes i do cutie and beutter and SB |
| IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?: | some of it is but i love their fries |
| WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?: | at about 7:30 this morning |
| DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?: | showers unless its a whirlpool tub then baths with lots of bubbles |
| IS SANTA CLAUSE REAL?: | his spirt is |
| ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?: | haha you could say so im afraid of what i cant see |
| WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?: | pumpkim spice lattes, tigger, 7th heaven and gilmore girls |
| CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?: | creamy |
| HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?: | hhmm...i dont think so... |
| HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?: | once this morning |
| IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?: | yes indeed |
| ARE YOU WEARING SOCKS?: | yes i am |
| HAVE YOU EVER HITCH HIKED?: | heck no |
| WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?: | brown |
| WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: | last night |
| DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?: | i LOVE my life |
| WHOSE LIFE IS BETTER?: | what? next question |
| ARE YOU PSYCHIC?: | no |
| HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"?: | no |
| DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?: | clarinet and very very little piano |
| CAN YOU SKATEBOARD?: | haha i can try to |
| DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?: | yes its so much fun, u just have to spray the site down to keep the bugs away 1st |
| DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH?: | hahaha nope |
| DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?: | in a young girls heart? wow that was random lol |
| IS A DOG A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?: | hhmm...id have to say yes b/c they love you no matter who you are or what you look like |
| YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?: | the answer to this is way too long for this survey |
| CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?: | i can try to moonwalk lol |
| DOES YOUR MOM KNOW YOU HAVE A MYSPACE?: | yes she does |
| WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?: | um...cheese and crackers for my lunch |
| DO YOU WEAR NAILPOLISH?: | on my toes rarely on my fingers |
| DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?: | yes i sure do |
| WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?: | id have to say all the political ones |
| DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?: | nope |
| FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?: | ooo good question the fray and nickelback |
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How awesome is God
He is this awesome...
Last Christmas I gave my boss a jar with cookie mix. She told me thanks but that she didn't celebrate Christmas and she proceeded to tell me she just didn't go to church, that she just didn't believe. From that day forward Each day I pray for her, just that she has a good day, or that she maybe will find Jesus in something. I can't tell you how many times she'd tell me about a struggle and I'd tell her I know you don't believe, but I do and I am praying for you...over and over again, honestly i think many people would have given up...i certainly got quite frustrated at times but God kept nudging me, "be patient be persistent, don't stop" and i continued.
Last Monday we received word her father had a heart attack, we later found out he did not suffer a heart attack but had a massive clot in his lung and that doctor's were amazed that he was still alive. My boss is very close with her family so i knew how hard this must be and i continues on my prayer journey for her and her mother and father and siblings.
today she pulled me into her office (i thought i was being fired...maybe wishful thinking but besides the point) and she looked me straight in the eye and said thanks for your prayers...i could not have made it through without them...my father is alive, he should be dead, and that is a miracle in itself. i look back on many other things i have gone through, the car accident i was in, it could have been worse and killed me but did not, my health problems, and i see now how blessed i am, and i see now that God is present..even if we choose not to see Him...i just want to say thanks...
wow...so let me just say...prayer is powerful and God does listen.
Last Christmas I gave my boss a jar with cookie mix. She told me thanks but that she didn't celebrate Christmas and she proceeded to tell me she just didn't go to church, that she just didn't believe. From that day forward Each day I pray for her, just that she has a good day, or that she maybe will find Jesus in something. I can't tell you how many times she'd tell me about a struggle and I'd tell her I know you don't believe, but I do and I am praying for you...over and over again, honestly i think many people would have given up...i certainly got quite frustrated at times but God kept nudging me, "be patient be persistent, don't stop" and i continued.
Last Monday we received word her father had a heart attack, we later found out he did not suffer a heart attack but had a massive clot in his lung and that doctor's were amazed that he was still alive. My boss is very close with her family so i knew how hard this must be and i continues on my prayer journey for her and her mother and father and siblings.
today she pulled me into her office (i thought i was being fired...maybe wishful thinking but besides the point) and she looked me straight in the eye and said thanks for your prayers...i could not have made it through without them...my father is alive, he should be dead, and that is a miracle in itself. i look back on many other things i have gone through, the car accident i was in, it could have been worse and killed me but did not, my health problems, and i see now how blessed i am, and i see now that God is present..even if we choose not to see Him...i just want to say thanks...
wow...so let me just say...prayer is powerful and God does listen.
Friday, October 27, 2006
Broken and Beautiful
This song has held my attention from the 1st time i heard it. It's by Mark Schultz. Here are the lyrics:
There’s a businessman, there’s a widowed wife
A smiling face with a shattered life
A teenage girl with a choice to make
It’s crowded here in church today
And the preacher says as the sermon ends
“Please close your eyes, bow your heads
Is there anyone in need of prayer,Oh Jesus wants to meet you here”
Cause we all fall short, and we all have sinned
But when you let, God’s grace break in
(Chorus)It’s Beautiful, Beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful
Well he’d never been to church before
But he came today as a last resort
His world was crashing in
And he was suffocating in his sin
But tears rolled down as hope rushed in
He closed his eyes, raised his hands
Worshipping the God who can
bring him back to life again
(Chorus)And it’s beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heartBroken and beautiful
Cause there’s nothing more beautiful at all
Than when His sons and daughters call, broken
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Come as you are
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Come as you are
(Chorus)Broken and beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heartBroken and beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful
Come as you are
Broken and beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful
Broken and beautiful
Broken and beautiful
Beautiful
I think what I like most about this song is that it reminds us that church isnt just for believers, and that we do make mistakes, but that is what God's grace is there for. The reason I believe that the church building is so important to some is that it is a place where people can go and surrender themselves, it is in a sense a safe haven to them...for those of us more mature in our walks the building is not as important, but i think that the building is imprtant for some.
I am reading this book called God in the Alley...it's a freaking awesome book, I can't remember the author's name...but I actually think i may have met him, im not positive though, when i was in middle school i went on a missions trip to toronto, canada (where this pastor calls home and has his ministry) and worked with homeless people and i am fairly certain we worked with this guy, or at least his colleagues. but it ties in with this song because it is also a reminder that we have to be Jesus to people and sometimes all they want is someone to listen, sometimes all they need is a smile, but we need to get on their level, and we need to be fully present, not just walking up and down the streets mindlessly handin gout food and saying "Jesus loves you" they are looking for a connection, maybe not with God but just another connection, and if you show them Jesus, you have not only connected them to you, but connected them to Jesus, and in doing so I believe that draws us closer to God. Once I finish the book i will blog more about it, most likely that will be this weekend. i have to say my new post-it highlighter is coming in handy :-)
anyways i guess thats all for now :)
There’s a businessman, there’s a widowed wife
A smiling face with a shattered life
A teenage girl with a choice to make
It’s crowded here in church today
And the preacher says as the sermon ends
“Please close your eyes, bow your heads
Is there anyone in need of prayer,Oh Jesus wants to meet you here”
Cause we all fall short, and we all have sinned
But when you let, God’s grace break in
(Chorus)It’s Beautiful, Beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful
Well he’d never been to church before
But he came today as a last resort
His world was crashing in
And he was suffocating in his sin
But tears rolled down as hope rushed in
He closed his eyes, raised his hands
Worshipping the God who can
bring him back to life again
(Chorus)And it’s beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heartBroken and beautiful
Cause there’s nothing more beautiful at all
Than when His sons and daughters call, broken
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Come as you are
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Come as you are
(Chorus)Broken and beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heartBroken and beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful
Come as you are
Broken and beautiful, beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful
Broken and beautiful
Broken and beautiful
Beautiful
I think what I like most about this song is that it reminds us that church isnt just for believers, and that we do make mistakes, but that is what God's grace is there for. The reason I believe that the church building is so important to some is that it is a place where people can go and surrender themselves, it is in a sense a safe haven to them...for those of us more mature in our walks the building is not as important, but i think that the building is imprtant for some.
I am reading this book called God in the Alley...it's a freaking awesome book, I can't remember the author's name...but I actually think i may have met him, im not positive though, when i was in middle school i went on a missions trip to toronto, canada (where this pastor calls home and has his ministry) and worked with homeless people and i am fairly certain we worked with this guy, or at least his colleagues. but it ties in with this song because it is also a reminder that we have to be Jesus to people and sometimes all they want is someone to listen, sometimes all they need is a smile, but we need to get on their level, and we need to be fully present, not just walking up and down the streets mindlessly handin gout food and saying "Jesus loves you" they are looking for a connection, maybe not with God but just another connection, and if you show them Jesus, you have not only connected them to you, but connected them to Jesus, and in doing so I believe that draws us closer to God. Once I finish the book i will blog more about it, most likely that will be this weekend. i have to say my new post-it highlighter is coming in handy :-)
anyways i guess thats all for now :)
choice
So New Comunity last night...amazing...Trace did an awesome job with worship, just amazing, and then Dr. Bob spoke, and the whole time he was speaking I felt as if it was just me and him in the room and God was catching our tears. Dr Bob spoke about his father, his fathers choice he made. This brought up memories of my grandfather. The parallels in Dr Bobs father and my grandfather are kind of scary to me...I forgot at moments the Dr Bob was talking about his dad not my grandfather. My grandfather too had a choice to make, and he made the same choice as Dr Bob's father made..however it was different in the sense that he was too sheepish to completely shut us out of his life, he faked it, for 20 years the man i thought was my grandfather, really wasnt. I didnt learn of his choice he had made until i was 16 or so, but once i learned this everything became crystal clear to me, actions that he had made started to make sense and the pieces fall into place. See my grandfather was a deacon at a local catholic church, he chose to put church 1st, and he chose to hide behind the church. he chose to abuse his family and when confronted he chose to keep running. i will never know whether or not my grandfather loved me. he told my mother on one occassion to her face that "i just cant love you" i cant imagine what my mother felt. One difference between my grandfather and Dr Bob's dad was my grandfather never said sorry, he never regretted his decisions, i remember sitting at the funeral home when you get to spend that hour or so before people start to come and see and i remember feeling my heart break into a million pieces. I remember feeling awful for not seeing him much, i remember the last time i had seen him he was in the hospital about a year earlier and i remember kissing him on the cheek and telling him i love you, (this after he had spent a week there, i had literally dropped everything in illinois and flown home to be here) i remember his last words to me, may God bless you.
Last night was good. Dr Bob has a world of strength and courage to be able to get up there and say what he said, but it was an important message. It was a message to anyone out there who is struggling with this choice...
Last night was good. Dr Bob has a world of strength and courage to be able to get up there and say what he said, but it was an important message. It was a message to anyone out there who is struggling with this choice...
Thursday, October 26, 2006
venting
so i need to vent...and i need to vent like now..so im venting...if you dont want to "listen" then just go on to the next blog..otherwise i guess enjoy?
i dont know where to start on my little rant...a lot has had me really thinking and really pushed to my limit lately. i guess i can start with work.
well i have been with the company for over 3 years now...and i realized a few days ago that never once have i asked for help with my workload, obviously i have needed help with the process of my job and had questions but i have always been able to do my work and get what my tasks were done even if it meant working late or coming in early i got it done. something else i have realized is that over the past 3 years somehow i always have managed to accumulate other peoples work...and lately its getting out of hand. when i am comign in on saturday adn they are at home...and i am working on stuff that is not my responsibility, something is wrong with that...and yesterday it really really got to a point where i couldnt take it anymore. someone was going to be out of the office for 2 days, and when i am getting ready for vacation i clean everything up so nothing is left for anyone else to do...well she informed me she was leaving me 4 or 5 starter files b/c she didnt feel the need to do them and felt i could handle them. i already am coming in saturday to work on a project...so im pretty busy...my desk is not a duming ground for work u dont want to do...ggrr...ok sorry just had to vent about that...
ok so what else...media...
so i havent watched the news in over a month actually probably going on 2 months now. i dont care to. and people assume b/c my boyfriend is in iraq that id watch the news. wrong...all i ever was hearing was how many people have been killed, now what kind of progress we have made over there, not the lives that are being changed b/c we are over there. and from what it sound slike when i hear conversations thats all that they continue to talk about the death toll. anything i know about the war is what nate tells me and it isnt much, pretty much this is what i know..what time he goes out each day, and when i can send my last package...thats it...i dont need to know more or less. so therefore i will continue to not read, watch, or listen to any news of any sort, and really i cant say i miss it all that much.
this is just a general vent lol...
when people support someone you love...dont get mad. dont get jealous. be glad that the person yo ulove has a strong support system which in turn could be your support system God forbid something happen to the person you love. it is much easier to be "alone" with friends then be all alone. just a thought for the day
i dont know where to start on my little rant...a lot has had me really thinking and really pushed to my limit lately. i guess i can start with work.
well i have been with the company for over 3 years now...and i realized a few days ago that never once have i asked for help with my workload, obviously i have needed help with the process of my job and had questions but i have always been able to do my work and get what my tasks were done even if it meant working late or coming in early i got it done. something else i have realized is that over the past 3 years somehow i always have managed to accumulate other peoples work...and lately its getting out of hand. when i am comign in on saturday adn they are at home...and i am working on stuff that is not my responsibility, something is wrong with that...and yesterday it really really got to a point where i couldnt take it anymore. someone was going to be out of the office for 2 days, and when i am getting ready for vacation i clean everything up so nothing is left for anyone else to do...well she informed me she was leaving me 4 or 5 starter files b/c she didnt feel the need to do them and felt i could handle them. i already am coming in saturday to work on a project...so im pretty busy...my desk is not a duming ground for work u dont want to do...ggrr...ok sorry just had to vent about that...
ok so what else...media...
so i havent watched the news in over a month actually probably going on 2 months now. i dont care to. and people assume b/c my boyfriend is in iraq that id watch the news. wrong...all i ever was hearing was how many people have been killed, now what kind of progress we have made over there, not the lives that are being changed b/c we are over there. and from what it sound slike when i hear conversations thats all that they continue to talk about the death toll. anything i know about the war is what nate tells me and it isnt much, pretty much this is what i know..what time he goes out each day, and when i can send my last package...thats it...i dont need to know more or less. so therefore i will continue to not read, watch, or listen to any news of any sort, and really i cant say i miss it all that much.
this is just a general vent lol...
when people support someone you love...dont get mad. dont get jealous. be glad that the person yo ulove has a strong support system which in turn could be your support system God forbid something happen to the person you love. it is much easier to be "alone" with friends then be all alone. just a thought for the day
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